(fanfic in Harry’s POV)
A long time ago, there was a lot of misunderstanding and I was mute.
I wished I was Renesmee, but I wasn’t. I spoke few words to the chaos that was happening around me. No one was listening even though I spoke to them and said all I needed was a friend, all I needed was someone who cared. There was just a humongous amount of chaos. I could read their expression but didn’t know why was it or what was happening.
I remember one day, when the chaos was at it’s peak and no one was talking to me or breaking it down in a language I spoke, I was on my bed crying and my mom laid down next to me. She didn’t say anything to me and I did not know how to explain but I just hugged her and cried. I remember this particular moment so well because this might actually be the reason I held on. Memories blur which is a blessing God has given me because I do not remember the specifics anymore.
The point I am getting to? Sometimes a tiny act of kindness is what saves a life. Sometimes a hug is all you need. Sometimes a smile and a gentle squeeze of hand or maybe just a what happened and a person who is ready to listen. All this might be simple things, but sometimes that can go a long way.
What do you do when you don’t even have that? Be your own guiding light and create your own happiness. The reason I am saying this is because fast forward few years, the chaos happened again and that time, there was no one on my side but me. There were times I was filled with so much negativity because of the negativity projected on me that I almost gave up.
Almost, but it didn’t happen because I believed in myself and I knew the tunnel would break someday even if I am too weak to reach the end of it. I knew this misunderstanding will end, I knew someday I would be heard and that was not the time. I believed in God and myself. I knew this wasn’t it. And you know what that wasn’t it.
Fast forward few years, two months ago, the chaos happened again and my self love and confidence recognized it and you know what happened? I screamed to the world that IDGAF 🙂
Now I recognize things for what it is. Even if my mind is not strong enough to recognize it sometimes, which might be out of my control (because external factor is way too strong ).
I know things, I know my rights and I have a voice.
rachana rajan <3 