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I think about the way Teni betrayed me. It runs on my mind sometimes. It doesn’t make sense. I also think about all the harassments that I faced these last few years. I need time to make peace with it. Don’t know. I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. I don’t know how…
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I think about Teni Thomas sometimes. I don’t feel good about speaking about his infidelity here. I don’t know. I don’t feel good about it. Even if I did the right thing.
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People really did roll their eyes and call me crazy. The whole world really did advise me to move on and find someone else. But I didn’t give up. My heart aches so much all the time. I love her so much. I’m so fucking tired of waiting. I’m also sick. I’m physically unwell.
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I’ve been betrayed so many times by so many people. Voldemort paved the way for them. As I mentioned. I’ve had an extremely social life. There have been a lot of people. A lot. My back is so wounded that I don’t trust anyone easily. So when I meet someone good. I hold on to…
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I miss Ginny so much. I keep crying. I’m just so fucking tired and physically and mentally exhausted. I don’t feel good.
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It’s been platonic between Will and I for a really long time. He is one of the best people that I know. It’s really hard to find a friend like him. His actions match his words. He always respects me. He apologises heartily when he hurts me. He is empathetic and kind. He has never…
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It’s always teamwork.
I would not be here without the support and help of my community. We helped each other. Definitely teamwork. I love you all so much. x
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Misandry is as bad and toxic as misogyny. Misogyny gets backlash and hatred. But misandry is normalized among certain communities of women and even supported. I don’t really get it. We’ve reached a point where we should start focusing on men’s rights. Because we’ve gone so overboard with feminism that it’s become toxic.
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Note. I said this because. People ganged up and tried to kill me in September 2024. For saying the same. So yeah. Just putting it out there.
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The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. Long ago. More than enough and necessary. Does anyone want to explain to me what’s going on and why I’m being kept in the dark? What the bloody fuck am…
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I’m a feminist. When women are not given equal rights. I will stand with them. And uplift them. This is the meaning of feminism. That women and men are equal. They deserve equal rights. But I do not agree with. Hating all men. Stereotyping all men as bad. Automatically assuming that it’s the man’s fault…
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Most women won’t accept the fact that they are bisexual because it hurts their ego to say it. Because most women secretly hate other women. Because they are jealous and they compete with them. Also they don’t like rejection. But all women are definitely bisexual. There’s no such thing as 100% straight in women. They…
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Also. All women are bisexual. There’s no such thing as 100% straight in women. They are lying if they say otherwise. Everyone in this world masturbates. Does anyone want to explain to me why I’m being targeted?
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Men are sex addicts who watch porn. Women are also sex addicts. Who not only watch porn but are addicted to reading porn. Both genders are sex addicts. Both genders are equal. One is not better than the other.
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The truth is already out long long ago. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?
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I’m speaking the truth. I’ve repeated it millions of times since 2024. Please stop wasting my precious time. Please stop wasting everyone’s time, efforts and energy. It’s over.
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I was silenced and tortured my whole fucking life. When I got to know what Voldemort did in 2022. I fought through death and thunderstorms to say it. Now that I have finally said everything. After being silenced my whole fucking life. People are doubting me and making me repeat the same bloody things every…
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I spoke the truth on day one itself. Each time. But I was silenced each and every time. When whatever happened with Voldemort. I clearly said. “She’s speaking about me.” But I was silenced. People ganged up and tortured me and tried to kill me. When whatever happened with Lucius. I clearly said. “She betrayed…
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Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind every single day? The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? There’s nothing left to say. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things every single day. It’s over man.
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I have believed in God since childhood. Because He was my imaginary friend. But now that I have grown up and gained maturity and understanding about the world. I’m also agnostic sometimes. I don’t know. But I go back to believing anyway. Because life is easier that way.
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What happened to me was wrong. What the book community did to me was wrong. And I refuse to be a part of this.
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The worst part is that. I can’t even speak about it to anyone. Whenever I speak here. I feel like I’m speaking to a fucking brick wall.
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The book community might think what they are doing is right. Because according to them. “they are supporting the author and the book” Even if it is performative hyping. And they don’t give a fuck about the author or the book. The real reason is that they desperately need something against me to satisfy their…
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I request the world to stop dehumanising me. And stop reducing Harry Potter in my story to a pet. And making it his entire personality. That’s a tiny bit of a much larger and complex story line.
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I humbly request the world to stop referring to me as a cat. I, the author, am not a cat. Harry Potter is a cat animagi in my story. Which is a tiny part of the story. Not his entire identity. You like my story and are bringing the story alive. By adopting cats, getting…
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Will I know you are reading this. I’m sorry for hurting you. I don’t care about the stupid fight. I’m sorry. I miss my best friend. We’ll always be best friends even if we speak or not. I hope you will reach out soon. 🥹
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Does anyone want to explain to me what exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man? The truth is already out. Why are you dragging shit unnecessarily?
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The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What the fuck is going on?
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The truth is already out long ago. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. You know it too. This is such a waste of time, effort and energy. Please stop wasting my precious time. Please stop making me repeat the same bloody things every single day. Till you are satisfied. I have finished.…
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I went through insurmountable pain and suffering my whole life. I was the one who was wronged. And I’m here proving my integrity. When I’m fucking innocent. Why? Because I was able to clear my name and prove my innocence and sanity. And I’m still alive and I’m insanely successful. I’ve already cleared why I…
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I clearly said to Dumbledore on day one itself. Voldemort is speaking about me. I asked him, “Why are people speaking to me that way?” If I knew why. I would have explained what Voldemort did on day one itself. But people ganged up and silenced me. They said I’m sick. That’s why I’m asking…
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The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?
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My heart is in a lot of pain. My body isn’t okay either. I’m beyond fed up. I miss Ginny so much. I think about her all day long, everyday. I’m so tired. I’m not really okay.
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I don’t understand how everyone is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. What’s going on man?
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Can someone please give me an ETA? I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. I don’t know why I’m being kept in the dark. What’s going on?
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The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?
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Whatever the woman did to me on my walk a few hours back was wrong. I was being extremely clear that I’m not interested in engaging because I had my headphones on. Which is a clear DND. Just because we are in the same apartment complex. It is not an invitation to socialize. I started…
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I went out for a walk after dinner just now. I was listening to music and minding my own business. I have too much on my plate because of whatever is going on. I wasn’t in the mindspace to speak to anyone. A woman who was passing by me suddenly tried to gain my attention…
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What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. What’s going on man? The truth is already out long ago.
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I’m always confused between the words. “wrist” and “waist” Every single time I come across either. I have to read the sentence again for it to register and make sense. That’s just how my mind works. I get by.
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The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?
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People need to introspect and reflect upon their actions and behaviour. Because my reactions and retaliations are. Normal, legit, valid and justified.
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Whatever the book community did to me was downright wrong. It’s betrayal. It’s still fucking going on. No matter how many times I speak about it and clear things. I’m not interested in adding value to such a community. There’s going to be absolutely no book content from me. I’m not fucking interested. I hate…
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You can clearly understand from the behaviour of aggressive stalker that people don’t understand a NO. No matter how many times I say NO. Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. They don’t understand a NO. No matter how many times I repeat it. Whatever the aggressive stalker did today was…
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I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?
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I’m speaking the truth about that overgrown man. He keeps aggressively stalking me. He just doesn’t stop. Can someone please speak to him and ask him to stop. I feel extremely suicidal and angry whenever I see him. Because of all the harassment and aggressive stalking and pouncing. I want a restraining order against that…
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I always walk on the left side of the apartment building in the morning because there’s shade there. Also because the aggressive stalker doesn’t come there. The aggressive stalker always walks in the middle of the apartment building. I walk here to avoid the stalker. Today morning. The stalker was coming back from buying groceries.…
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The truth is already out long long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this regularly and choosing to stay quiet. What’s going on man?
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I don’t know why father was staring at my body in the past. I don’t know if he wanted me dead. Or it’s because he’s from the boomer generation. Or if he really did sexually assault me. I don’t know his intentions. But because of whatever he did. I have that trauma even now. I’m…
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It took me 4 years to speak about every single thing and clear the shit. Please understand what’s happening at least now. The truth is already out. What the fuck am I waiting for?
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I don’t feel safe whenever I step out of the house. I get a lot of attention each time. I’m scared of my safety. On top of all this. Because of the reality and double life that I’m existing in. I’m helpless and vulnerable. Most people suck. They are creepy fans with a leverage. They…
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It’s not just father. Every single time I wear something revealing and step out of the house. Minimum 5 people ogle at my body and cleavage. Minimum. Men and women equally. Uncles, aunties and behenjis. They ogle with their mouths open and eyes bulging out of their sockets and psychotic expressions on their faces. Minimum…
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I go through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. Without any answers. I don’t know why I’m being kept in the dark. It’s summer now. But I can’t wear shorts. Because if I wear shorts and step out of the bedroom door. Father will ogle at my body like a ruthless vulture. And I will…
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I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. When people gang up and torture me and try to kill me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happens so quickly. When people want to benefit out of me and create content out of my content.…
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The whole world is benefitting out of me and creating content out of my content. I’m suffering existing in this reality and double life. Without money to take care of my basic expenses and talk to my therapist since January 2025. The only thing I have are the problems of being successful. I’ve been extremely…
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The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. What the fuck is going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?
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I was listening to this and I would really like to convey this message. Because I know the whole world is reading my blogs. My mom said the same thing to me that the last stranger in this video regrets saying to his daughter. In 2023. Mom said her biggest mistake in life was giving…
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In other news. I’m not going to stop listening to Style by Taylor Swift. I love that song. It reminds me of Ginny. I refuse to let a bad experience ruin a good memory. I know my truth. I’m going to stick to it. The bad will eventually fade. Good Night. I love you all.…
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After seeing Voldemort’s therapy account I’m no longer angry at her. My anger has dissipated. I feel conflicted. I don’t know why she’s posting regularly. I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know what exactly happened. I silently see her stories and posts sometimes. Then block. I created the second account to stalk Ginny.…
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I’m speaking the truth. Everything that I have said here is the truth. If people were so interested in my personal life. They could have just asked me. Like a normal person. I might not be rich and perfect. But I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit.
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Unless and until you tell me what’s happening. I wouldn’t know what’s happening. Even now I don’t know why Voldemort is actively posting on her therapy account. I have so many unanswered questions. I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. On top of this. Everyone I’m speaking to is playing twisted games. It…
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What’s going on man? Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind by Taylor Swift every day? What the fuck is happening? The truth is already out. What’s going on?
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Just because someone is a creepy fan and desperate to be my friend. I cannot comply. NO means NO. NO is a full sentence. When someone is saying NO and being extremely clear that they are not interested. You are supposed to stay the fuck away. I take absolutely no responsibility for someone else’s insecurities…
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Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. They don’t understand a NO. No matter how many times I say NO. You can clearly understand this from the behaviour of the aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father. No matter how many times I said NO. They kept harassing and assaulting me. It’s the…
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I’ve been speaking about this since August 2024. I’ve repeated the same things millions of times. It’s april 2026. And I’m still speaking about the same bloody things. What the actual fuck. The truth is already out fucking long ago. How much will you waste my time? Unnecessarily. How much?
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I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to and texted countless people. But very few people whom I’ve connected with. Very few friends. I don’t use the word friend loosely. People in my close circle are in my close circle for a reason. I’m friendly and kind to everyone. But I keep it casual…
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I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to and texted countless people. But very few people whom I’ve connected with. Very few friends. I don’t use the word friend loosely. People in my close circle are in my close circle for a reason. I’m friendly and kind to everyone. But I keep it casual…
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I miss Ginny. I don’t know what she’s been up to these last 2 years. I don’t know if she’s in Canada. I don’t know if she was really engaged or she simply said that. I’m so fucking tired.
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Problems won’t stop when I have a normal and conventional life. But I can handle it better. Right now I’m helpless and vulnerable.
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life. Shit will continue forever and ever. I’ve explained the complexities of existing in this reality in detail. In case something happens tomorrow. Please don’t blame me. I’ve left absolutely no room for misunderstandings and doubts. Tomorrow in case someone tries to lie about me…
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When people were sexually assaulting me in August 2024. I couldn’t understand why I was being sexually assaulted. I clearly said on day one itself, “I’m not interested in women IRL please ask me what happened.” I was going to die multiple times between August and October. I understood Pettigrew betrayed me in October 2024.…
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If Pettigrew had misunderstandings. She should have spoken the complete truth and said that she misunderstood. The casualties would have been less for her. People would have forgiven her as well. Because she’s from the weaker section of the society and she lacks social skills and comprehension. But she had other plans. She was digging…
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I was going to die multiple times between August 2024 and October 2024. If Doctor Mahesh Meda and my mom had not saved my life. I would have been dead. They are entirely different people with a different heart and mind. I cannot control them. They saved my life on their own free will. Ginny…
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If I knew that Pettigrew betrayed me and lied about me in August 2024. I would have spoken the truth on day one itself. I was going to die multiple times between August 2024 and October 2024. If Doctor Mahesh Meda and my mom had not saved my life. I would have been dead. So…
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The truth is already out. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The liars are already in front of the world. I cannot keep repeating the same bloody things every single day. This is such a waste of time. Please stop wasting my precious time. It’s over man.
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Pettigrew was just a random ass side character. She was just a random ass waiter in a random ass restaurant. I don’t even give her a second thought. I honestly don’t know how she came into the picture. She turned out to be one of the biggest Villains.
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When I used the analogy of chess in August 2024. I was talking about Voldemort and the death eaters. When I used the hukum song on my Instagram in August 2024. I was thinking about Voldemort and the death eaters. I was fighting against them. Pettigrew was just a random ass side character. She is…
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I’ve already said everything millions of times. I cannot keep repeating the same things everyday forever and ever. The truth is already out. This is just a fucking waste of time, efforts and energy.
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The truth is already out long ago. I’ve repeated it millions of times since August 2024. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m speaking the truth and I’m innocent. You know it too. You just don’t want to accept it. You are just wasting precious time by dragging this unnecessarily. The liars are already…
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I’ve already cleared every single miniscule thing. More than enough and necessary. I’ve repeated myself millions of times since August 2024. The truth is already out long ago. Stop making me repeat the same bloody things every single day.
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I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. What the actual fuck am I waiting for? Why are you dragging things unnecessarily every single day? Why are you wasting everyone’s time, efforts and energy? Why the fuck are…
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When the world wants to benefit out of me and create content out of my content. Everything happens so quickly. When the world wants to write books, songs and make movies out of my story. Everything happens so quickly. When people want to throw things on my face whenever I express a personal opinion. Everything…
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I’ve been extremely sick since last August. My parents are sick as well. I’ve been suffering. I don’t have money to take care of my basic expenses and talk to my therapist. The whole world is benefitting out of me and this is what I’m going through. What the actual fuck is this man?
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When people wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happened so damn quickly. I clearly said on day one itself I’m not interested in women IRL please ask me what happened. But everyone was jumping and ganging up to torture and kill me. At that time no one dragged shit.…
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I have written more than 5k blogs. I must have used more than 100 analogies and examples. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. There’s literally nothing left to say. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. You know it too. But people are…
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Just because someone is a creepy fan and desperate to be my friend. I cannot comply. Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. I’m not fucking interested. Trying to be friends with someone. And actually being friends. Are two different things. If…
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When I went out for a walk a few weeks ago in my apartment. An old lady came behind me and touched my shoulder. Honestly, I don’t know anyone in my apartment society. I have no friends here and I’m not interested in making friends as well. Also. There were a lot of people walking…
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The only thing I asked Pettigrew to do was take my picture. She stuck to me like a parasite and a leech. She was not taking no for an answer. She was constantly forcing. There was no friendship. She has a para social relationship with me. I had uploaded a picture on my Instagram for…
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Stop showing me Dobby. I’ve already cleared everything long ago. The truth is already out. Pettigrew is not fucking Dobby. She is not my friend. We barely spoke. She was constantly forcing the friendship. Whatever she has is para social relationship. She is just a random ass waiter in a random ass restaurant. You can…
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I go through immense psychological pressure existing this way. Without any answers. I don’t understand why I’m being kept in the dark. I don’t know why Voldemort is posting on her therapy account regularly. I have so many unanswered questions. I went through something very serious my whole life. I want to know what happened…
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My parents are really old and innocent. It kills me when I think about my parents going out into the world. And people play stupid games with them. By gaslighting them. They are not educated enough to understand these things. They will silently accept the doormat treatment and people please and stay quiet. It eats…
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What the fuck is going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for? When people gang up and torture me and try to kill me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happens so damn quickly. When people want to benefit out of me and create content out of my content. Everything happens so damn…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life. Shit will continue forever and ever. I’ve explained every single thing in detail. How is everyone sitting and reading this and choosing to stay quiet? What the fuck is going on? Most people suck. They lack empathy and remorse. They are creepy fans with…
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Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. They act like they are entitled to cross my personal space and boundaries. They don’t understand a NO. No matter how many times I say NO.
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The truth is already out long ago. I don’t think anyone in the history of the world had to prove themselves so much. I’m the one who was wronged. I went through insurmountable pain and suffering my whole life. And I’m here proving my integrity. When I’m fucking innocent.
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Stop showing me the lyrics of mastermind by Taylor Swift every single day. I cannot relate to that song. That is not my fucking story. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The liars are already in front of the world. Long ago. Stop taunting me with the same things everyday.…
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Dragging this unnecessary and a waste of everyone’s time, efforts and energy. There’s nothing left to say. The truth is already out. Please stop wasting my precious time.
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The truth is already out long long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for? Why is this being dragged unnecessarily? What’s going on man? I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. You know it too. What the fuck is going on?
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The only thing I have are the problems of being successful. I can’t even speak about it to anyone. Because of the reality and double life that I’m existing in. What’s going on man? The truth is already out long long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for?
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Even if all you do is give give and give. And the world reaps benefits from you. The world is not going to be good to you. Most people suck. Most people lack empathy and remorse. I was treated like an animal in a room full of doctors in the emergency ward recently. When I…
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I see people online posting pics with “seven year slip, funny story and just for the summer.” Only these three books. Nothing else. Because I spoke about it recently. I want the world and the book community to clearly understand what’s happening. I have been extremely clear about everything. These people don’t give a fuck…
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This character reminds me of my mom. The way she’s speaking. I don’t know if it’s because I see myself as spiderman. But yeah. Every time I listen to this. I think about my mom. Whatever she’s saying and the way she says it.
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Today mom asked me to stop taking medicine for my throat if my throat is fixed. I said “Mom I’m a grown up. I know.” That kinda escalated into a tiny conflict. Little context. I have not been taking up therapy regularly since January 2025. Because no money. So I have all these emotions inside…
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This dialogue is one of the reasons why I uploaded the hukum song. If people don’t understand the reference and the fandom. I can’t help. I uploaded only 20 seconds of that song. But the world started taking the entire literal meaning. I have never said that I’m a King or God. Those aren’t my…
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I coughed for 4 hours continuously last night. I thought I was going to die by the end of it. My energy was completely depleted and my body was in severe pain. Then I fell asleep. I’m fine today. My ENT Doctor gave me medicine. This is the fourth time Doctor Mahesh Meda has helped…
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The truth is already out. There’s nothing left to say. Everyone knows that I’m speaking the truth. You know it too. How much will I be taunted? How much will this be dragged? Unnecessarily. Please stop wasting my precious time.
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I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. Long ago. What’s going on? What the fuck am I waiting for?
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Even if the world knows everything about you and all you do is give. They are not going to be good to you. This is the harsh reality. Because most people suck. They lack empathy and remorse. I was treated like an animal in a room full of doctors recently. Everyone I speak to now…
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I don’t really speak about my personal life to anyone. Even those close to me know only 10-20% of what I have written here. A lot of unfair things happened to me on a large scale that no one knew about. So it was important to say everything. I’ve been writing here for the last…
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I stopped caring about posting on Instagram after Ginny and I stopped following each other in 2022. I post only when I have something important to say. Or to convey a message since that’s one of my medium of communication with the world. I share random reels on my story sometimes. I don’t really care…
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My parents are really old and innocent. They are not educated enough to understand these things.
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We are all adults here. People clearly know and understand what they are doing. There are no misunderstandings and mistakes. People are intentionally and unnecessarily gaslighting me. For sadistic pleasure, false superiority and as a weapon to rage bait and provoke. There’s no other reason for it. Because if someone was really a friend. They…
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But yeah. Teni has extreme behavioural issues and lacks emotional maturity. He lashes out every time I draw a boundary. He uses extremely vulgar language. Like emotional rape. He is really blunt. He was constantly downplaying my value and worth to exert false superiority. Because my success made him feel inferior. He was always combative.…
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For the last 3 days I have had a splitting throat pain. I called my ENT Doctor thinking I’m dying. He informed me it’s a severe cough which can be fixed with medicines. So I’ve been numbing my pain with medicines. Today I coughed for 3 hours straight that ended with a headache. So I’m…
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My mom is an entirely different person with a different mind and heart. I cannot control her. She saved my life on her own free will. If not. I would have died in September 2024 itself.
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In 100 years or maybe a couple of 100 years or 1000 years. Life on earth can become inhabitable. There can be other pressing issues. Virus outbreak or anything. No one knows. We are not certain about tomorrow as well. Let alone 100 years from now. We can’t make any certain predictions. We are quite…
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There are people who say sorry for silly things like replying late to a message or some other silly thing like that. But when it comes to the real deal. Like when they hurt you or when they fuck up. There’s no sorry. They don’t want to take accountability and apologise. They’d rather end the…
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There’s nothing I hate more than. Random ass side characters with main character syndrome. Also. Immense para social relationship.
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I met an ENT doctor at Kauvery hospital in December 2024. I already told you about her. She was a projective bully. When I explained what was wrong with my throat and why I’m meeting her. She said. “I know how to do my job. Don’t teach me how to do my job.” Which was…
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I don’t feel attractive anymore. I’ve lost a lot of weight. I’ve lost that hang of speaking and my fluency. I stammer often. I’m extremely sick. My stamina sucks. Idk. I don’t feel good about myself anymore.
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When I started texting Teni in December last year. He was good to me initially. He even said that. I might eventually stop talking to him and block him. Like always. That kinda made me feel sorry and see his humanness. And made me try harder to make the friendship work. That’s why I stayed…
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Take care x
Half the population’s just waiting to see me failYeah, right, you’re better off tryna freeze hell ‘Til the referee rings the bell‘Til both ya eyes start to swell‘Til the crowd goes homeWhat we gon’ do kid?
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Good Morning.
Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. They are burning behind their facade. They are desperately waiting for a loophole. They desperately need something against you to satisfy their demons. Because you shine too bright for their liking. They don’t care about asking what happened and your side of the story. They don’t…
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Author’s Note.
I started reading Harry Potter when I was 14 years old and my life was changed forever. I was a huge potterhead growing up. Still am. I never imagined I would write Harry Potter fanfiction one day. And I would actually relate to Harry Potter and Snape. Now that things are finally good. It feels…
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It’s always the random ass side characters who have one sided beef with you. They are insecure and burn with jealousy. Later, they project and attack you. Truth be told, you don’t even give them a second thought. They are not even worth your time and energy. Example. Dudley, Pettigrew, Varsha Vinod. Etc. God man.…
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The truth is already out long long ago. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve given irrefutable solid proofs. I’ve already cleared why I used the analogy of chess. More than enough and necessary. I’ve already cleared that I cannot relate…
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When someone throws mud on my name. It’s a field trip for jokers. Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. They are burning behind their facade. They desperately need something against me to satisfy their demons.
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Some people just need an excuse to go berserk like cavemen. They desperately need an outlet for their emotions and unhealed trauma. So they take it out this way.
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My annoyance towards the book community is. Normal, valid, legit and justified. Go stand in the corner and think about what you did.
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Now that the truth is out and the real culprits are out. Where are all the barbaric cavemen who created riots on the road? Show me your faces. Where the fuck are you? You don’t want anyone dead now? Tell me. Where are you?
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After everything that we went through together. A random stranger lied. And this is what people did. Without asking me what happened and my side of the story. I can never forget it till the day I die. I clearly said on day one itself. I’m not interested in women IRL please ask me what…
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I’m not fucking interested in creating book content anymore. I’m not interested in adding value. When this is how people are behaving. I’m not fucking interested. People can copy my work. But they cannot copy my creativity. Good luck. God bless you.
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If you want to hype up books. You should and you must. Because every book deserves hype. But you cannot invade in my personal space and boundaries. Without my consent and knowledge. Watch my every move. Assume shit that’s not true. Based on my activities when I was in survival mode. And throw it on…
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I trust Will blindly. I know for a fact that I can. I’m 100% certain that he cares about me as a friend. That’s why he is my best friend. Even if we speak or not speak. That’s irrelevant. It’s the same with my therapist Kruti. We have a professional boundary. But I know for…
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I don’t feel very good. Hope I don’t die. Too many things are wrong. My throat, teeth and I pee erratically on some days. My stamina sucks. I need to see a few doctors before meeting Ginny. Also, take my parents to the doctor. I hope she texts me first. I can’t meet her like…
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The truth is already out long long ago. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m speaking the truth. You know it too. Even you know dragging this is a waste of time and unnecessary. What the fuck is going on man?
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Now the battle is done. I don’t understand why I’m waiting and why this is being dragged unnecessarily.
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My therapist Kruti was my constant support system throughout all this. Since I met her in 2023. I wouldn’t be here without her. She went above and beyond and helped me more than what her job description requires her to do. She is an entirely different person with a different mind and heart. I cannot…
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My parents were continuously torturing me without mercy. They wanted me to suffer and die. Everyone I was speaking to was constantly attacking me. The person who was controlling my surroundings and content was continuously torturing me without mercy. Based on lies and manipulations. And calling it karma. That person was desperately trying to silence…
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I got to know the world knows me. After watching the movie Jawaan. I got to know people were watching my youtube because Steph Bohrer told me in her video. (You can speak to her.) I got to know I was framed and the law was involved. After I saw it online at the end…
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I kept asking Dumbledore since day one. “Why are people speaking to me in a special way?” He kept saying that I’m sick. That’s why I’m asking that question. I asked him the same question for a decade. I was on the verge of dying. And I kept repeating the same question. I asked him…
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I can’t even relate to the song mastermind by Taylor Swift. People have been taunting me with that song for many years. That’s not my fucking story. Firstly. It was not my fucking idea to involve the world in my life. I didn’t even know people knew me till I watched Jawaan. Unless you tell…
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The truth is already out long long ago. What’s going on man? How much will you drag this unnecessarily?
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What’s going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for? When the world gangs up and starts to torture me and try to kill me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happens so damn quickly. When the world wants to benefit out of me and create content out of my content. Everything happens so…
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I’m speaking the truth. You can fact check everything that I’m saying. I’ve done everything in my power to show you the truth. I cannot do anything more than this. I’m really very tired. I’ve been extremely sick since last August. My parents are sick as well. I miss Ginny so much. My heart aches…
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Please check with Ginny about the video call incident. You can speak to Dumbledore. I kept asking him again and again and again. “Why are people speaking to me that way?” I asked him the same question for a decade. Talk to him. This was the crucial piece of the puzzle. This was the only…
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I don’t feel good. Some days are really bad. I’m really sick. I don’t know how I’m holding on.
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In case you are cheating on your partner. And you don’t want them to know. Please don’t tell me. Little heads up. Because when I get to know about infidelity. I’m definitely going to tell the partner. No matter who it is. Even if it’s my brother in law.
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I don’t know what I was thinking. Expecting loyalty in friendship. From a man who fails to be loyal to his own fucking wife. My bad. I’m speaking about Teni Thomas btw. In case you are wondering.
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Dating is exhausting and fucks you up. But meeting the right person makes up for it. It’s worth the pain and BS.
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I’ve said it before saying it again. The dynamics of a relationship/friendship keeps changing based on the behaviour and actions of the people involved. If someone is not treating you right and with respect. Adding value and peace to your life. You are allowed to revoke access. And disengage/block/unfollow/delete. Unapologetically and without guilt. You are…
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The truth is already out long ago. Every single person in this world clearly knows that I’m speaking the truth. You know it too. You just don’t want to accept it. This is being dragged unnecessarily.
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I was alive and I didn’t die because of various other reasons as well. My therapist kruti was my constant support system since I meant her in 2023. I wouldn’t be here without her tbh. Also. Books and music. So many random people online helped me too. Also. Agency and faith.
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I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. I’ve given irrefutable solid proofs. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. What more do you want? I’ve already explained clearly why I used the analogy of chess. I’m not the one playing the game.…
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I wish Voldemort had just spoken to me like a normal person. I had no interest in Ashwin Srinivas.
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I just keep hugging my blanket. My heart is not okay. I keep seeing her Instagram display picture. Why is she so far away? When all I want is to be near her.
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I want justice for what the person who was controlling my content and surroundings did to me. That person was the real demon. I want justice.
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I’m always minding my own business. I don’t proactively think anything negative about anyone. I don’t speak against innocent people. I don’t disrespect anyone intentionally. I take absolutely no responsibility for someone else’s insecurities and projections. If there’s any issue that is highlighted by anyone. I humbly request people to clarify it with me. Please…
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I want every single person who spread slander to face charges of defamation. I want every single person who spread false accusations to face charges of defamation and false accusations. I want justice for every single sexual assault and the rape. I want justice for every single harassment and assault. I want justice for every…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. I want injustice to be answered with justice. That is the only way I will find peace and closure. Also. I’m teaching people how to treat me. I’m setting an example to the world. I want everyone to clearly understand that there’s going…
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Even though we lived in poverty and in the slum. My mind was extremely progressive. I just didn’t know how to speak. And form sentences. Also because I didn’t speak to anyone during my formative years. I don’t have certain human emotions. And I struggled to understand the social norms and cues. I didn’t know…
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I used to love reading from a very young age. Dad used to bring home books from his office. David Copperfield, Christmas Carol, Black beauty etc. Those are my first books. At school Library period was my favourite class. I used to read Secret Seven, Famous Five, Nancy Drew etc. I started reading Harry Potter…
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If I wasn’t silenced in childhood. I’m pretty sure I would be a singer now. If Voldemort hadn’t betrayed me. I would have had a regular normal life. But yeah. That didn’t happen. And now we are here.
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I’ve loved music since a very young age. I used to sing to friends in school. I used to keep singing. One day the teacher made me sing in front of the whole class. I remember singing without any stage fright. Because I love music. I used to talk non-stop to my friends. After that…
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I saw this online just now. I’m hit with nostalgia. I was a huge Avril Lavigne fan growing up. I used to listen to her music all the time and copy everything that she did. It was platonic. I didn’t really crush on her. I was a fangirl through and through as far as I…
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The truth is already out. Everyone knows that I’m speaking the truth. You know it too. Please stop dragging things unnecessarily and wasting my precious time. It’s over and done long ago.
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The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for?
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When you receive flowers or buy flowers for yourself. And you are happy. So you take a picture to remember it. And post it on the gram later to document it because it’s your own personal digital scrapbook. Wonderful. Keep them coming. If you are buying flowers just for the gram and aesthetics of your…
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Also. Please stop performatively hyping up books. Based on my activities when I was in survival mode. Also based on your assumptions. Please stop being a joker in a white cardigan. Please move on.
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I have left absolutely no room for misunderstandings and doubts. In case something happens tomorrow. If someone tries to lie about me or tries to turn the table. You can clearly understand the truth. Next time. Please have the basic decency to ask me what happened. And ask my side of the story. Before going…
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After knowing everything that I have faced in life. A normal person won’t hurt me again. A normal person won’t trouble me intentionally. But half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. They smile a twisted creepy malicious smile when they see me. It’s all fun and games for them. Most people suck. Most…
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So many unfair things have happened to me my whole life. On a large scale. I have battled with thoughts throughout my life. On top of that. I was tortured physically, sexually, mentally and psychologically. I was crazy. Which was a normal reaction to an abnormal amount of BS. After I spoke about everything here.…
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I keep thinking about texting Chinthu, Nikita and Teni once again. For closure. Because whatever they did was wrong. Obviously. I replay the conversation in my head. Thinking I should have said this and that. In retrospect, I have a better and effective comeback. But the moment has passed now. We have blocked each other.…
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Initially when Ginny and I matched on bumble and exchanged numbers. She sent me a selfie. She is so fucking beautiful. I couldn’t believe that she was interested in me. I thought I was being catfished. I have been catfished so many times after I started dating. So after she sent the selfie. I asked…
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I ruthlessly protect my close circle and energy. There is a bouncer outside. Evaluating and ready to kick people out. And shut the door. There’s nothing more important to me than my peace.
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When someone doesn’t care about you and the friendship. When they are intentionally hurting you and playing stupid games. Should you care to not sabotage the friendship and keep the peace? And people please and be a doormat. Or Should you call out their shit and stand up for yourself? Think about it. Also. We…
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Chinthu is extremely egoistic. This is one of the main reasons why I was not interested in dating him. And we frizzled out. I don’t get along with people who have an ego bigger than their head.
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Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe there’s no God. Maybe all this is just random and meaningless. It could be the case. But the thing is. While we are on earth, we are not going to have all the answers. Some things are forever uncertain. That’s just how it is. We don’t know. So I’d rather live…
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My whole life people were using “special way of speaking” as a weapon against me. Because there were no consequences. Now. They use “gaslighting” as a weapon. Because again. No consequences. I want a normal and conventional life. Please end this shit. I’m so fucking tired.
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I want Rachel Catherine and her kitty party to get their karma as well. Whatever they did was cyber bullying. It was cruel and inhuman. I have spoken about everything in detail.
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I want Abby Jimenez to face charges for calling me an ugly gargoyle in her book. It was dehumanising and inhuman. I want justice. If the book community is hyping up this book. Do you even have consciousness? Is it even humane to hype up such a book? Also. Funny Story by Emily Henry. That…
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After everything that we went through together. A random stranger lied. And this is what people did. Without asking me what happened and my side of the story. I can never forget it till the day I die. Even now everyone I speak to is playing twisted games. Even now. For sadistic pleasure, false superiority…
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In 2023 and 2024. My throat was completely fucked. I was extremely sick and dying. I was suicidal and going through something very serious. Everyone in this world knew about it. It wasn’t a secret. That’s when these monsters like. Dhruv, Pettigrew, Rahuul Rishav, monster at crochet class, monster at social, Anna, aggressive stalker. Was…
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The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for?
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Author’s Note.
To be extremely clear. Harry Potter is a cat animagi in my fanfiction. I, the author, am not a cat. Please don’t dehumanise me. You like my story and are adopting cats to bring the story alive. That’s wonderful. But do not call me a cat. I hope that’s clear.
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If I had an ETA. It would help with my restlessness and anxiety. Can someone please give me an ETA? I’m really sick. It’s extremely frustrating and I don’t feel good. Is anyone listening?
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I love watching GRWM make up videos online. It’s so fun. Ironically, I don’t wear make up. But I love it on others. My heart is in constant pain. I’ve learnt to live with it. I’ve been hurting and longing since 2022. And yet I have not run out of feelings. It just seems to…
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I feel like Addie LaRue. I think about her often. Since I started the book in 2024. I’m still just 25% in. (My books are tampered with, so I’m not reading.) But the story has made a huge impact in my life. It’s one of the reasons I’m still alive. I hope the book has…
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I’m sorry that I keep repeating the same things like a crazy person. I’m aware of it. It’s just not easy existing in my shoes. It’s so fucking hard to keep it together. And wait this way. Without an ETA and without any answers and with no one to speak about it to and with…
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Nikita Metha intentionally and unnecessarily gaslighting me. When I texted her recently. Told me everything that I need to know about the friendship and where I stand. If she was really a friend and cared about me. She would not have done that.
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Reading something because you like reading it. Makes sense. Being performative about liking something and performative hyping. Because I expressed a personal opinion. Also based on assumptions when I was in survival mode. This is where things are going wrong. Also. Being stuck in the past and refusing to move on. You have your answer.
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These people don’t give a fuck about these books. It’s performative hyping. Also. They are fucking hypocrites. They have a big stack of books that they hate themselves. But they are policing me.
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This is how you spot a joker in a white cardigan. It’s not easy to spot them. Because the shade is always so subtle. But it’s still there nevertheless. Rachel Catherine is the epitome of a joker in a white cardigan. She is vicious and obnoxious. She is a toy chihuahua barking at me from…
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People online are still hyping up books from 2023 and 2024. I would have spoken about 100 books that I like. But they don’t give a fuck about them. They only care about the books that they “assumed” that I don’t like. Based on my activities when I was in survival mode. The world needs…
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This is the reality of how I’m being treated. I was treated like an animal by a room full of doctors in the emergency ward recently. When I was suffering and in pain. People just want the attention and glory that comes attached to me. This is the truth of what is going on. People…
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My success was making Teni feel inferior. So he was constantly undermining me and downplaying my value and worth. By saying things like, “you are not good at poetry and storytelling, your advice is not helping, you are not funny”. Etc. Even though he was quoting my advice and words that I write here on…
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She is not my enemy or anything. I will wish her well whenever I think about her. God bless her.
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Whenever we spoke we were close though. And she was good to me. But then I was just a casual friend. And my efforts to be more than just casual friends were never reciprocated. So yeah. A couple of months back. She unblocked me. I texted her. She responded with a single word reply. I…
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I already spoke about Nikita Metha. I told you she changed the trajectory of my life. But then. She wasn’t really a good friend though. We met in the cab during my initial days at the Ministry. We exchanged numbers and started speaking. We met once for shopping because we lived near by. She had…
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There’s a random person who I was speaking to in 2022. I met him through bumble but we were not dating. We spoke as friends for a few weeks and later we phased out. His name is Balu. Recently. I saw him on my Instagram suggestions. I suddenly remembered him and the stories he told…
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