(fanfic in Harry’s POV)
My heart is in pieces and some parts are missing.
How do I move on when I am still in love? How do I move on when I crave to hear his voice? I am living in my head and in the memories. Memories I don’t wanna forget. There is a physical ache in me which doesn’t seem to go.
I’ve been going on dates after dates and it is just a blur and blurry faces. Nothing seems to stay or is significant enough to remember. They only add to the trauma. They only make me miss him more.
Sometimes I wonder what went wrong. Sometimes the tears flow down my cheek and I fill my blog and diary with words with no one around me to voice it out. He was my best friend and someone I loved way more than anyone I’ve met.
I might have said things or did things for it to fall out or was it not meant to be? I believe it’s the former, but why am I not able to mend it and undo the past and rewrite it?
Why is it slipping out my hands like sand and I am unable to hold on to it no matter how much I want to.
My heart aches and maybe the missing piece might never be placed back in it’s place. That place might always be empty. Maybe one day it might stop hurting and the tears might stop. But that place in my heart will always be empty.
rachana rajan <3 