(fanfic in Harry’s POV)
I’m not going to take the help of fanfic to convey this because this has to be addressed directly.
The evil Voldemort is no more now and is long gone but traces of him is left and unfortunately I’m unable to break the preconceived notions that he so strongly engraved in people’s mind. No matter how much I write, sometimes it feels like it’s all in vein.
Voldemort used horcruxes, hence all he could see was horcruxes everywhere. I was innocent and couldn’t frame a single sentence years ago during his reign, but because of his evilness and guilt, all he saw was horcruxes and he planted a horcrux inside me and vanished. Like a hit and run car crash.
No matter how many friends I made after that, his perception stayed and it affected all my relationships. Do you see the catch here? Because of him every person I spoke to took his place as a death eater and used the horcrux. Alas! which made them see horcruxes everywhere too.
People say, oh she is sick, so she loses all her friends. But no, that’s not the truth at all, I’m a bloody good friend, it’s just that I’m unable to break free from this stupid mess created by Voldemort even after years he is dead and gone.
Do you see how much Voldemort impacted my life? Do you understand the hatred now?
But no, I’m bigger than this mess created by him. I stay true to myself. After a lifetime of this shit, I have learnt how to use a horcrux and I can if I want to, because yes, I can express myself now. But I never have and will as well. I was innocent back then and I’m now too. My consciousness is clear that’s one of the reasons I’m still alive.
Since what people do and think is really not in my control, I can’t help but say fuck you to people who choose to take Voldemort’s place in my life.
Because the truth of the matter is, I’m not afraid of being alone. Never have. You can find me happy and dancing to shake it off in my room.
P.S. The only time I’m not direct is while I write fanfics in my blog because I honestly dunno how to write something like this directly.
rachana rajan <3 