(fanfic in Harry’s POV)
(Yes, I’m back because I have so much more to say.)
I don’t know, there have been so many instances which makes me feel I don’t belong here.
There is so much that needs to change in India. India has come a long way but still has a long long way to go.
Firstly when I befriend women and am friendly with them or compliment them, it always is doubted and they draw conclusion that I’m interested in them, when the truth is far away from that and they aren’t even my type and I DON’T even find them attractive. I compliment because that’s the way I am. I’m always super friendly.
When out in public, If I’m watching a movie for instance, there was a woman sitting next to me who switched seats with her partner because she did not want to sit next to me. When in reality, I didn’t even look at her face or for matter of fact, care about that person. Because, hello I’m there to watch the movie. That woman is comfortable sitting next to pervy Joe, but not next to someone who doesn’t even notice her.
Recently, there was an instance where I accidentally walked into the loo while someone was using it and I freaked out tbh because it’s her mistake of not locking the door in the first place. I came back to my place and got lost working on my laptop and when I looked up, she was sitting in front of me with her partner. I went back to my laptop because again, hello I’m here to work. I didn’t really care about the whole thing until she switched seats with her partner. I don’t really know what to say about these things anymore because people are so fucking narrow minded.
When I was trying to date women on bumble, my experience was traumatic AF. That’s a whole different level of trauma which I try my best to forget. I have made peace with it though and have left that thought because as long as I’m here, that’s not something I wanna do.
Sometimes, when I’m speaking to a man and compliment them, they say “oh no don’t think about me and masturbate all night” or when I’m on video call with them and shake my leg like I always do, they say, “are you masturbating”. I just wanna laugh at their idiocracy, because they don’t even turn me on to begin with, and people who say things like that belong in my blocked list. I wanna say, “don’t flatter yourself fuckface”, but block instead.
I don’t know what’s wrong with these people. Do you also feel like you don’t belong somewhere?
Anyway, it’s a “they” problem and not me problem. So I’m just here vibing to “not ramaiya vastavaiya”. Have you watched that movie btw. It’s amazing 🙂
rachana rajan <3 