rachana rajan <3

(fanfic in Harry’s POV)

Sometimes when years pass, I’ve realized that I tend to miss the friends from my past.

Because well, I spent a lot of time, energy and effort into building that friendship. Even though it was toxic AF, there were some good memories as well. As time passes, the memories fade and sometimes I just think about the good ones and tend to miss them. But what I’ve realized is when I speak to the person again, the unpleasant memories hits me like a wave and I want to abort the conversation.

I’m just not able to go back and talk like nothing happened when that person lacks accountability. Even if they take accountability, I’m unable to accept them back in my life. It just puts me in a lot of trauma.

So I guess the best thing to do when I miss them is not reach out. Sometimes I intentionally say blunt things to them so that they block me. Because honestly, I don’t have enough self control not to reach out and it becomes easier when there is no way for me to do so.

So I guess, even though I miss them sometimes, it’s best for my mental health if I don’t bridge the distance and leave them in the DC universe that they belong.