(from Harry’s POV)
Sometimes anxiety consumes me and I do impulsive things.
Like, I booked the Era’s tour movie tickets 4 times because I cancelled it 3 times in a row and lost a lot of money.
Why you ask?
Well, I was consumed with social anxiety and was not able to decide if I should go.
Another example, yesterday I removed all my followers and following from Instagram and wrote that very anxious blog post.
Again, because I was consumed with anxiety.
My anxiety makes me do a lot of crazy crazy things and I act out of impulse. I swear I’m working on it. I’m not really sure what causes it though.
My body and mind becomes numb and overwhelmed and I just push everything away and I do things which is quite irrational and illogical.
This might be my biggest flaw. I’m all over the place, you know? (it’s all messy)
Sometimes I wish my body would just function normally.
But how do you define normal?
Normal might be different for different people. How my body and mind functions is normal for me because that’s the only normal I know of.
If you say something you feel, I might not be able to relate to that, but that might be normal for you. But I would never put you in a box and call you crazy for it.
I will accept your normal like how you accept mine.
Thank you for understanding and being there for me in this world that’s filled with different definitions of normal, I’m able to define mine and am accepted and loved for it.
What more could I have asked for?
rachana rajan <3 