(from Harry’s POV)
I had a “friend” at Ministry, let’s call her Surya, I loved her since the beginning and considered her as a “good friend” but she didn’t see me as one. We used to sit together since day 1, but once she made new friends she stopped sitting with me and talking to me.
Whenever I would go to her place to talk to her she would keep looking at the laptop and pretend as if I’m not talking till I go from there. If she was talking to her friend when I would go to talk to her, she would suddenly stop talking and ignore me till I go from there. Sometimes when I go to talk to her, while I was talking she would suddenly get up from her place and go from there and start talking to someone else.
When I used to call her on phone and say something, she would completely go mute and I have to force her to talk or she would just disconnect the call. When I used to text her she would ignore my messages or continuously disconnect my calls till I stopped calling.
But when she needed my help she would call me and sweet talk. Whatever secrets I tell her wouldn’t stay between us as well.
This continued for a long long time and I still considered her as a “friend” because I was stupid. These days she responds to my messages and talks to me but my self respect doesn’t allow me to talk to her anymore. So I cut her off.
I had another “friend”, let’s call her Sangamittra, we were never really close but when I came out to her as bisexual, she said she wished she met me before she got married because she is interested in me, but I wasn’t interested in her. So after that episode I started ignoring her, but she would constantly text me, no matter how many times I ignored her messages and cling on to me.
She even sent me a picture showing her cleavage, I’m really not sure why because we didn’t have that kinda friendship where we exchange pictures. She would constantly call me hot and things like that whenever I post a picture.
She told me marriage won’t work out for me based on her experience with marriage. When the truth is, she got married without dating and knowing the person, just for the sake of getting married, so she thinks it won’t work for anyone because that’s the case for her.
She even told me she posts pictures with her husband on Instagram because she wants to show off their relationship. I do not vibe with all this personally, so I cut her off.
I had another “friend” at Ministry, let’s call him Tyagi, he called me one day and started demeaning me saying, he feels sorry for me because I’m stuck in my job and everyone who joined with me moved on. He even said that I’m not good at writing and anyone can write the shit that happened to them and that doesn’t make them good. He said a lot of other shit like that, after that I cut him off.
I had another “friend”, let’s call her anusha ashok, she used to keep staring at my boobs every single time we met and later she told me she is a lesbian and she finds me beautiful, but I wasn’t interested in her.
In the midst of betrayal she asked me to meet and told me I’m creepy and I should let Lucius have Lockhart. Every single time we met she would call me creepy but she wouldn’t stop staring at my boobs. After a lot of other shit like that I cut her off.
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I can go on and on like this mom.
I hope you see what happened and I hope you understand.
And I really hope you stop intentionally hurting me and ask me “what happened” next time.
I crave to hear you ask “what happened” but you never do, I don’t know why.
rachana rajan <3 