(from Harry’s POV)
From the limited experience I have with sex and foreplay, I can tell you one thing, physical compatibility is important and vital.
The only time I had sex was with a psychotic psychopath, I’m saying psycho twice because calling him psycho once doesn’t describe how mentally off he was. Even a psychiatrist can’t save him I’m afraid, he needs an exorcist.
He sucked in bed. Like SUCKED. He really didn’t know what he was doing (no wonder he was divorced). No matter how many times I told him a no while fingering, he kept doing it forcefully again and again with his dirty finger nailed fingers. I’m in so much trauma even now when I think about it.
He was only concentrating in pleasuring himself and used me as much as he could for his evil deeds. He was so psychotic in bed that because of him, I don’t even crave for sex because unfortunately that’s the only experience I’ve had.
He was like a horror movie I just wanna forget and move on.
Also, the guy with the ugly dick that I told you about. Imagine you wait till marriage to have sex and then after your wedding you see that infested dick (I think he has STD), it’s going to be divorce the next morning. The trauma, OMG. And his bloody averse to tongue cleaners. I gag even now when I think about it.
There was also another psychopath who whispered “feed me like a baby” to me on our first meet.
Well, after those very horrific experiences, I’m telling you what I’ve learnt and that is, physical compatibility is a thing. The faster you learn these things about the men you date, the quicker you can leave them.
I was stupid back then because I didn’t know how to draw boundary and didn’t know I could just get up and leave and block.
I wish I knew the things I know now. But it’s okay. I know them now and I’m passing that wisdom onto you.
Take care and be safe.
Pray for my safety too because I don’t really have a body guard.
rachana rajan <3 