(from Harry’s POV)
Recently I called Gilderoy Lockhart to give him a piece of my mind and he started talking to me like I’m his long lost friend (that ass).
He wanted to stay in touch but it was affecting me badly to even talk to him or have casual conversation with him. I wanted to shout at him but couldn’t because I’m not really good at talking to people so I stayed quiet.
I called him again because I really wanted to give him a piece of my mind. I confronted him and said how numb I was 5 years ago and told him everything on my mind and you wanna know what he said?
He said I was the one who kissed him 5 years ago and he “stopped” me. Also, that he can show the proof of text message.
I completely lost it at him after that. Because you know what the truth is, I told you, didn’t I?
I was numb and suicidal because of everything that happened to me and he called me to kiss and kissed me and I just kissed him back and he said no no with his hands and when I looked at him confused he whispered “people are watching”. Later he said he wanted to eat me on the road.
This is what happened.
I was so stupid back then I didn’t understand the situation and I was a pathological people pleaser, so I texted him, I jumped on you right? I’m sorry.
And Lockhart still kept that message and is showing that as a proof to me and stating I kissed him and he said no, when the truth is something else all together.
Are you getting what I’m trying to say? Are you getting the extent to which people twist and turn things around for the sake of saving their ass. Are you getting the manipulation and the gaslighting and the falseness to people.
I still can’t come to terms with how people are tbh. Because I never do that.
People will go to any extent to manipulate to save their asses and seem angel like. People will go to any extend to spoil your name and make you look bad and take advantage of your silence and helplessness.
This is the exact reason I stopped trusting people easily. I don’t trust at all easily. I just wait and watch their behavior and words. I take a lot of time to accept people in my life and keep them, even as friends.
Because this is one of the experiences I’ve had.
No I haven’t lost my faith in humanity. Because there are some good people in my life too which I’m grateful for.
But sometimes I just feel so shaken when I interact with people like Lockhart ’cause I can’t believe the extent to which people lie and manipulate and stoop.
I don’t know what else crap people have told about me and if the world believed it.
I’m so shaken.
rachana rajan <3 