rachana rajan <3

(from Harry’s POV)

I feel like I’m talking to a stone wall sometimes because nothing seems to change but I’m going to say it anyway.

I’m sorry but I have to address the elephant in the room because maybe unless I speak it, no one will know.

What happens when I interact with people these days is, they copy my flaws and make it clear that they know me and then they gaslight me.

Maybe their intention is good. Maybe their intention is not to hurt me.

But it fucks me mentally when they do it.

People in my past have done a lot a shit, I mean a lot. They spoiled the meaning of empathy for me, so it brings back bad memories, hence it disturbs me.

If you want to show love, please find other ways, wearing a cardigan or sneaker or something of that sort is nice, because I feel loved and appreciated.

But some other type of love and empathy disturbs me a lot.

Also, please don’t gaslight. I have said this a million times but I’m going to say it again anyway, if you can’t speak about something, just don’t.

Yes, just don’t speak it.

But don’t gaslight. If one person does it its okay, but if everyone I meet does it, it fucks me up.

You have no idea how long I take to recover from one incident. If you did, you won’t do it.

So if you love me and care about me even a bit, please for the love of God, don’t do this.

Just be silent, that’s all.

Don’t say anything at all if you can’t, but don’t gaslight. You don’t know how much it is impacting me mentally.

Please read about gaslighting and understand the word thoroughly and choose your words carefully.

I hope it doesn’t happen again.

I hope this doesn’t get lost in the void.