rachana rajan <3

(trigger warning)

I lost my will to live yesterday after I completely lost it at my parents.

But I held on and kept it together. I asked my parents to just forget everything and bought flowers and made a garland for God, went out for walk and slept.

I got up at night 3am and felt so low. I was at my lowest and I didn’t have anyone to talk to.

So I got up and brushed my teeth.

I played “aas pass khuda” on repeat and lied down for a very long time staring at the ceiling through my mosquito net and I started feeling sleepy after few hours.

After I got up in the morning things were okay and back to normal.

I just need strength to hold on and get through the suicidal feeling and things are always better on the other side.

This is what I would encourage everyone to do, just hold and get through the feeling and do the things that make you feel better.

Things are always better on the other side.

My parents are good people and they are trying to change, even if they don’t change atleast they try and that’s worth something.

Maybe they messed up. But I’m not judging them anymore and I’ve let it go because at the end of the day I love them and care for them and it’s okay I guess.