rachana rajan <3

(from Harry’s POV)

Remember I told you about Surya from Ministry? (Refer prev Toxic friends blog)

I decided to let go of what she did and called her to talk.

I told her what happened in Ministry because I’m a fool and still consider people as my friend.

She said, “I didn’t know anything that happened to you, that’s why I didn’t call you, I just know you shouted and left that day”.

After talking to her, things didn’t feel right and my therapist asked me to process things when that happens because I’m always slow in understanding.

I got it the next day. Everyone knows everything and she didn’t call me intentionally, not because she didn’t know anything.

I confronted her BS, she said sorry, but you know sometimes sorry doesn’t fix things. (it’s bandaid on bullethole)

I confronted all her BS since day 1 and you know what she said? She said that I used to call her and cry and how many times I’ve done that.

I’ve called her and cried just once in the time I’ve known her and thats because Tayenjam was torturing me.

Then she said “I don’t know how to help you.”

I haven’t called her for help in 4 fucking years.

Then she said she doesn’t want to be friends and you want to know something? we were never friends lol.

Every time I say “how are you?” she doesn’t ask me back.

Everytime I say something or share something (not problems) she goes completely mute. But she keeps dumping her problems on me and expects me to empathize.

We were never friends cause this isn’t friendship.

She needs therapy to learn empathy and how to be a friend.

A lot of people need therapy and need to learn empathy but they don’t take it or work on themselves and people like me who interact with these people get fucked and take therapy.