rachana rajan <3

I kept thinking I overreacted and what happened yesterday was my mistake.

But the more I think about it, I don’t think it is.

My parents have been commenting on my clothes all my life, before they used to hit me, verbally abuse me and my father stares at me when I get dressed and go out.

This stopped only couple of months ago.

And today again my mother commented on my dress when I was getting ready and all the trauma that I went through because of her all my life and the fights that happened almost every single day resurfaced and I fought with them.

I’m going to be 33 years old and I don’t think I need to be told what I should wear and shouldn’t by my mother.

After I confronted her, she started crying.

Later she gaslighted me saying she and father didn’t do anything.

That triggered me futher more because I went through immense torture because of them.

Then my mom behaved crazy and behaved as if I’m the villian and attacked me and said things like she should have killed me when I was born again and again.

I was calm and I shouted only when I was triggered.

So I don’t think I did anything wrong?

I really think my mom needs to see a therapist and get her shit together because she is a mess and I don’t want to deal with her.

She is also really manipulative.

After seeing this side of her, I really find it difficult to love her.

But I try each day.