rachana rajan <3

My parents have completely changed since past couple of days after I spoke my heart out here.

So I guess it was all because of a lot of misunderstanding that they did what they did.

They did mess up but I’m not judging them because it happens to the best of us.

I messed up too, I don’t think it was right on my part to constantly confront them and shout at them for what they did in the past. It was because of what I went through and also the close proximity after what happened and what I realized.

Whatever happened in the past was a storm that has passed. I don’t judge them for that as well, given the circumstances and the chaos, it happened the way it happened.

I’m happy that the knot that I thought that can never be undone has resolved itself.

They aren’t bad, I always saw good in them, just that their judgements got clouded and it’s okay.

Anyway, let’s move past it.

I don’t realize how time passes these days.

I feel instead of constantly cribbing and moaning about how much I want to move out and be alone, I should just let things happen when it does and be present. (yes, take my own advice :P)

I’ve said it a million times moving out doesn’t mean I don’t love my parents but I guess they must be tired of hearing me say it again and again.

I just repeat it because no one is listening.

I don’t know why people expect me to have superhuman strength and forgiveness and put me through obstacles while tbh I don’t think they would last in it themselves.

I’m this close to punching people on the face if they play pretend with me again, this close (meaning the distance between two alphabets that you see in these words that I’m typing).

I might do it soon, the best part is I won’t get time in jail for it because I’m literally under my invisibility cloak.

I’m not even kidding.

This is not a joke.

Goodnight.