rachana rajan <3

I read the new book of Emily Henry today and honestly, her book felt like a personal attack, so I DNFed it.

I have spoken nothing but good about her books till now but if she decides to behave so low, I no longer consider her as my favorite author.

I kinda lost my liking for her previous books in an instant.

Same with the YouTuber that I watch (Rachel), I have said nothing but good things about her in my channel and have expressed many times that I like her platonically.

But she called me “ugly”, “crazy”, “mastermind” and l ignored that because I felt it must be a misunderstanding and gave her the benifit of the doubt, but today I saw a video where she called me an ugly gargoyle.

It’s really hard to continue to like people when this is how they behave when I have always loved them.

I’m not hurt by what happened because I’m a secure person and I know who I am.

I’m just hurt by the betrayal.

What they said and did is a reflection of who they are as a person and it doesn’t say anything about me.

I have decided to just let go of them because I have said I love them multiple times and this is what I got in return?

I should just stop expecting.

Also, maybe I should not express that I like anyone rather like the people who reach out me.