rachana rajan <3

I’ve noticed a pattern in my behaviour and I feel this is what I’m doing wrong.

I continue to love people even after they hurt me and because I do this, their guilt makes them feel I taunt them indirectly (which I don’t) and they intentionally hurt me again and again, till I break.

So the solution for this is, I should set clear boundary when they hurt me the first time and not let things slide.

Also, I feel I should love people in a limit and be selfish about who deserves my selfless love.

Another pattern I’ve noticed is in my communication. I have trouble saying things sometimes and I stay quiet because of this, people feel it’s okay to overstep my boundaries. It’s like I’m allowing the doormat treatment till one day I can’t take it anymore and burst.

The solution for this is to work on my communication and be prepared.

Another pattern is I don’t say things because I feel it’ll hurt them. But sometimes it’s essential to say it.

Another pattern is I should not do things that others want to do rather do what I want always and put myself first.

Another pattern what I’ve noticed is, the world doesn’t ask me what happened when something happens and they react based on whatever the other person says, which might be a lie and fabrication of truth.

Another pattern is I don’t let go easily because even a small thing cause severe trauma and I give that trauma to the person who caused it again and again when I’m hurt.