Every single time my father gets angry he takes it out on my mother because it gives him a ego boost.
Even if he doesn’t have a control of the situation that is making him angry, he has a control of my mother because he treats her like a doormat. He constantly wants to dominate my mother and she allows it.
My mother thrives on sadness. She always has tears ready to take over the situation even if the situation doesn’t require her to be sad. She will go to any extent to fuck sympathy.
Even if she isn’t actually sad about the situation, she pretends to be sad.
She doesn’t understand that it’s okay to not cry and be mature and she doesn’t have to constantly battle and pretend to fuck sympathy.
My parents were in constant battle to trigger me and make me shout and they always smile when I shout and my mother starts pretend crying and creating a drama of the entire thing.
She would intentionally trigger me every single time before I go out.
My parents are masochistic and cruel. Even after knowing everything I’ve been through if they still hurt me intentionally, I have no other words to describe them.
I always get hurt twice, the hurt that my parents and people cause me and the hurt that the world cause me without asking what happened.
rachana rajan <3 