rachana rajan <3

I know it’s wrong to continue to confront my parents about the past because I’m unable to forget it.

But it’s so hard because of the close proximity.

What happened to me was also not right.

Also, everything that keeps happening every time I go out and online.

I forgave them finally and things were going good, then what I read in the book triggered me again and I remembered everything.

After that I don’t know, I kept asking my mom why she did what she did.

Nothing made sense.

It felt like I was busy trying to prove that, they really did what they did.

I don’t know if I’m not letting my mom feel emotions. But she fakes it at times, that’s why I ask her to stop.

Sometimes when she is really crying I ask her why and she never tells me. When I ask her if she wants to talk to a therapist, she gets angry.

Even now things don’t make sense, I don’t know why.

I don’t know what’s happening?

I can’t identify with the emotions and feelings that people have.

I will never intentionally hurt anyone, I will never do the things that people do. I don’t think like them too.

I don’t know why I’m so different.