Another thought that crosses my mind while reading smut is, I always feel it’s exaggerated because I don’t think it’s humanly possible to feel that way.
The limited times I’ve been intimate with men, I’ve either stared at the ceiling or an object or faked it. I always felt something is wrong with me. Hence I stayed quiet and continued with this.
Now I know there was nothing wrong with me, I just wasn’t attracted to those men.
Because when I’m attracted even slow burn is fireworks. Unfortunately, it’s just been slow burn for me.
I’ve made my peace with it.
rachana rajan <3 