Dear Diary.

I used to text someone, his name is Paul. We have good conversations sometimes.

I can’t call him my friend because it’s one sided. If I don’t text him, he never speaks to me. So I stopped talking to him.

There was another person, her name is winni, it’s kinda the same with her.

It’s kinda one sided. Also, she asks me questions for which she already knows the answer. I don’t like pretending.

So I stopped talking to her as well.

When talking becomes one sided, I stop texting and step back.

I don’t really call people my friend easily. In friendship I expect equal efforts to stay in touch and it takes time to build friendship.

My life is kinda stand still right now. I don’t really talk to anyone because I don’t wish to be gaslighted or pretend about things.

I’m waiting to be treated conventionally.