rachana rajan <3

My life is a stand still right now and I’m waiting for my money, recognition and credit.

I don’t want to date or make friends right now because I don’t function half the time.

The trauma is not going to leave me completely as long as I’m living in this tiny apartment with my parents.

Also, I don’t trust my parents.

Mother won’t hesitate a beat before sabotaging my relationship and making everything about her and stewing rasam out of the situation. She has done this before so I no longer trust.

Just walking out of the bedroom door puts me in trauma sometimes because of father. Sometimes when I look at him, his eyes will be on my body and he always has a creepy smile. He has done this my entire life.

Also, the constant bickering and the words my parents use drains me mentally.

With this situation I can’t date.

I just want to place some distance between us and clear my head.

Making friends is out of the question too because I do not wish to play pretend. I’m not a toddler.

I’m just waiting so that I can move on with my life and start living.

The whole world is benefiting out of me.

Everyone are repeating and copying my work and taking credit for it, while I’m stuck in this situation and suffering everyday.

This is so masochistic and cruel.