rachana rajan <3

I would have gone my whole life thinking something is wrong with me if I hadn’t met Will.

I had feelings for Lockhart before that. But they weren’t real feelings. I was extremely immature to understand what it was, there was no connection and I didn’t really think and feel beyond kissing him.

I think I feel it in my vagina when I want to have sex. It’s like a strong feeling like how I read in books.

But with Will it was the right person, wrong time. We never met for years and when we finally did, he was married so nothing happened.

We were always five feet apart.

I guess I wasn’t ready mentally as well. I had a lot of work I needed to do on myself and heal.

Ginny was magic but I guess it was again right person, wrong time.

You know what happened (kinda sorta).

There was a lot of things that needed to be said and cleared to the world. I had to work on myself and I had to heal and grow.

Now I’m healed mostly and I’m kinda ready?

(The point of this blog Harry?)

Well, I just realized I feel it in my vagina when I want to have sex. I’ve felt like it with Will, Ginny and Symran and that’s about it.

I would have gone my whole life thinking something is wrong with me if I hadn’t met them.

No one else has made me feel that way. I feel so dead and cold when I speak to other men and when I go on dates and fool around.

I guess now I just have to wait till I feel that way again.

I’m okay without it too.

Also, I feel even when I fooled around with men I’m interested in (Ginny and Chinthu, that’s it), it was kinda messy and not like how it is in books.

You know in books it is picture perfect but in real life, the belt gets stuck or there will be an uncle approaching the car so I have to stop and duck etc etc. (just an fyi for authors who write smut :P)