Toxic Relationships (continued)

I realize now that the only time I had sex was abusive and toxic.

The psycho divorcee kept assaulting me in bed. I remember saying no each time before he fingered me with his dirty fingernailed fingers.

He did it again and again even though I said no to it.

I had sex with him only because he manipulated me not because I was ready and I wanted to.

Also, I told you about the condom incident.

I get extremely overpowered with sadness when I think about all the times I’ve been intimate with men because I felt nothing for them.

I shouldn’t have said yes to men when they said they loved me because I never felt the same way.

After the realization dawned on me I decided I’m never going to do that again.

That’s why I keep saying no to the men who show interest in me now.

Because I know better now.

I’m able to make better decisions for myself now.