rachana rajan <3

I don’t know if I’m special to her as she is to me?

She has had so many experiences but she is the only good thing that’s happened to me.

I don’t know if I mean as much to her as she does to me?

I think I do because of what she sent me last year but I don’t why she didn’t say it directly? Is it because she is engaged and doesn’t want to commit to me?

I don’t know how to ask her this.

I’ve been randomly meeting men to forget her but I don’t think I can and I really don’t care about anyone else.

She is my priority and she is always on my mind.

Every single time I hug or kiss someone else I’m thinking about her, so I stopped doing that.

I’ve kinda lost interest in men and women.

I don’t know, I don’t really care anymore about meeting someone or my age.

I’m like fuck this shit now.

I’m happy just doing things by myself.

I don’t know if she will come back.

Maybe she won’t I guess, I don’t know?

I guess I will just go to bed now.

Good night.