rachana rajan <3

Even when I was in the auto with Dhruv going to beir library I was thinking about Ginny and missing him.

Because that’s the place I met Ginny the last time.

I played Lover by Taylor Swift because I was thinking about Ginny. I was feeling weak so I leaned my head on Dhruv’s shoulder because Dhruv is my friend and that’s what friends do.

I didn’t stop Dhruv when he held my hand because I was lost in my own world thinking about Ginny.

I sat exactly at the table where Ginny and I sat at beir library because I was thinking about Ginny.

I leaned my head on Dhruv’s shoulder and cried at bier library because I was thinking about Ginny and I felt it’s okay because Dhruv is my friend.

I came back home and cried because I was thinking about Ginny.

And that bloody motherfucker Dhruv blamed me for liking his bloody ugly face.

I will obviously get angry and feel like slapping him.

Every time I went on a date with a man or met a friend after the last time I met Ginny, I was physically present but mentally absent.

Physically I was with them but mentally I would be thinking about Ginny.

Physically I hug them but mentally I will be thinking about Ginny.

I haven’t thought about anyone else.

I had crush on 3 men, I guess. But I thought about them only for an hour or so and I was back to thinking about Ginny.

I don’t really care about anyone, tbh.

This is what happened.