Gaslighting is harassment. Period.
My mind is weak now. If anyone hurts me by gaslighting me, even after making it extremely clear how much it is affecting me, I’m going to hurt them back.
My parents have been stabbing my trauma continuously since childhood and I see no end to it even now.
These days whenever mother stabs my trauma intentionally to get a reaction out of me me, I don’t function for 2-3 days.
I have to try my best and heal myself.
And she does it again and again and again with no end and no compassion.
Father never changes too. He still sneezes like a caveman. He sneezed like a caveman on the vegetables today, even after saying it million times.
Mother loves to be sad, she loves willowing in sadness and drama.
Even if there is a choice to be happy, she will choose sadness.
She is so fucking broken and refuses to seek help.
I have let go of the expectation that they will change, because they never do.
They don’t respect me or my words.
I don’t trust them as well.
I can’t date as long as I’m in this house because mother won’t hesitate a beat before sabotaging my life and making everything about her and stewing rasam.
I’m honestly scared of her because I don’t know when she will stab my trauma again.
I’m scared of father too. I don’t know when his eyes will be glued to my body like a ruthless vulture. He has done it my entire life.
I don’t feel safe at home. I don’t trust them.
I keep praying to God to put an end to this suffering and give me my money.
rachana rajan <3 