rachana rajan <3

I grew up watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S but I didn’t really have any real time experience talking to people.

When I started talking to people, I considered everyone as my best friends and behaved how Chandler or Rachel would behave.

I always copy what my favorite fictional characters do.

I always compliment and find good in people, say I love you to my friends, hug them etc.

Everything I did was platonic.

Little did I know, people are so fucking narrow minded that they take everything in a sexual perception just because I masturbate. (Everyone in this world bloody masturbates.) Also, because of the preconceived notions fed into their minds about me.

So many atrocious things have happened to me that it killed the love I had for my friends.

Now I don’t really consider anyone as my friend unless they are worthy of that label.

I don’t say I love you to my friends anymore because platonic love is lost on people.

I stopped hugging too.

The people I met in life killed my unconditional love and taught me to hate.

They shattered my innocence.

Also, Voldemort sabotaged my life so there was immense misunderstandings all my life.

Now things are fine though cause I’ve learnt to give it back and protect my peace.