Its hard to live with parents in this close proximity after what they did.
They aren’t doing anything now, thankfully. I maintain love and peace daily and practice compassion because I want peace at home.
Even if I have forgiven them, sometimes I just can’t be with them because my memories are still there.
I get scared and my body goes into alert sometimes when I’m around them. I’m not sure when they will do something again. I don’t trust them blindly nor do I feel safe.
I’m not sure if father has really changed or if he is not staring at me because I’m wearing pant and loose clothes these days.
I don’t know when mother will stab my trauma again.
Placing distance between us is the only solution. I’m just waiting for my money so that I can do that. I’m not sure why I’m made to wait like this when I have already expressed that I’m ready.
I’m not sure why people are deciding things for me and exploiting me this way. This is cruelty.
I’m mostly okay because I have detached myself from my parents and have placed an healthy boundary.
rachana rajan <3 