rachana rajan <3

I don’t know what exactly happened or how it happened, but I think I get the enormity of the situation I’m in now.

Somehow I’m as famous as Michael Jackson. It took me sometime to understand things and come in terms with it because I never wanted this.

If the world is thinking of me as God or something along those lines, please don’t. I’m not God and I don’t want to be either. I’m not sure of this but I just want to clarify it.

After doing this for sometime I started understanding that everyone are reading my blogs and I have a voice.

I’ve always had a lot to say and I’ve always felt like a superhero who is undercover.

Since I had a voice, I wanted to use it to share my thoughts and learnings to help and make a difference.

Also, to prove my sanity and innocence.

So that’s what I did.

It healed me in the process.

I don’t know if I’m capable of handling what this has become because I have never experienced it before.

I’m not sure how to go about it either. To be honest, I’m not that keen on making a lot of money and being extremely wealthy as well. I don’t need that much money.

I don’t have any big dreams but there are a few things I would like to do.

I want to give my parents a comfortable life, buy a car for my dad and help my sister.

I don’t know if I want to move out because now I’m okay being with my parents, they are peaceful these days.

I want to do charity as well.

I don’t want to work anymore. If I have enough money for the rest of my life, that would do.

That’s about it.

I lost the only thing that mattered to me, so I’m not that interested in doing anything much these days or even fight for my credit and recognition.

I feel everyone deserves to go peacefully from earth. Even if you don’t make a huge impact, you matter.

When you are on your death bed, I want you to let go in peace knowing that you do and knowing that you have lived a good life.

It’s never too late to change and never too late to do the right thing.

So that’s what I was trying to do, bring peace, to me and this world.

No one knows what comes after and no one knows the secrets of this vast unknown universe.

Faith, hope and love keeps us going.

I’ve let go of my bitterness and hatred towards the people who hurt me. I might not want them back in my life but I have let it go.

I chose to hate them and wished karma on them because the pain I was in was unbearable and it was easier that way.

But now I hope they work on themselves, grow and find peace.

There are certain people whom I might never be able to forgive because they did too much damage but I have let the pain go.

I’m at peace, mostly.