rachana rajan <3

I was on the verge of dying many many times my entire life because of people around me and my parents.

Exactly like what happened to mother two days ago.

I was in the same state as mother couple of weeks ago because of mother’s torture.

I’ve been working on myself constantly so I’m able to deal with it now.

I was using the same words as mother to show her how much her words are impacting me.

I wanted her to realise her fuck up.

I didn’t know she would hurt herself. I take accountability for that

But I don’t understand why parents don’t change and grow or even realise their mistakes.

Father has ruthlessly stared at my body like a vulture my whole life, no matter how many times I told him and the world I’m suicidal and asked him to stop.

The whole world blamed my perception and tried to change my perception instead of making him stop.

He continued this until recently till I proved there is nothing wrong with my perception.

He continued with whatever he did because he had the leverage that people considered my perception was faulty.

Same way many people I knew used that leverage to take advantage of me and hurt me and other ulterior motives.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with my perception. When I say someone is doing something, I want you to trust me and believe me.