Note.

Honestly, I don’t talk about my personal life with anyone.

I’m writing about it lately because she has moved on and I’m just putting all my unsaid words and feelings here.

I think she is reading it since everyone are.

I don’t know if it changes anything?

I so want to talk to her. My heart is a mess sometimes.

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about her.

And all these problems that keeps coming up.

I don’t know.

I don’t talk about my problems with anyone too. I don’t talk about 90% of what I’ve written here.

Sometimes I don’t realise I haven’t spoken about something until someone probes me.

I have so much trouble speaking.

I mess up even now. I made so many fiascos on my YouTube because I wasn’t speaking clearly. Aahh.

I’m trying my best.