Note.

I value friendships and love when it happens organically.

(Please ignore what happened when I was crazy because of the torture.)

I don’t like being forced or forcing someone too.

I tried falling in love again after Ginny and met hundreds of men, but it’s not working. So I’ve let it go for now.

It will take some time for me to forget her, once I feel ready I’ll try again.

If I want someone who loves me or if I want to get married, I can easily and effortlessly get it.

It’s just that I’m not desperate to do it just for the sake of it.

Also, I’m not interested in making friends at the moment because I’m not interested in being gaslighted, so I maintain space and keep things casual.

I draw healthy boundaries which I learnt in therapy.

If anyone has problems respecting my space and boundaries please work on it in therapy.

Once people stops gaslighting me, I will be open to making friends.

But as I said, it’s not humanly possible for me to accept everyone in my life.

My mind is extremely weak.

So I love people from a distance.

The only person I want to talk to is Ginny.

I’m just trying to be okay with her absence.

When I feel like talking to someone I have my family, nieces and my therapist.

For now I’m good.