Note.

I was not mentally present when I hugged krutika.

I was blanking out and weak.

I remember Ashwin touching my hand during that time.

I think I might have been thinking about something and squeezed her hand.

But I’m saying the truth, I’m not attracted to women in real life, I never was and I’m not, even now.

Even when I leaned my head on Dhruv’s shoulder, I was not mentally present. I was constantly thinking about Ginny.

I kinda didn’t realise what happened because I wasn’t aware of my surrounding. I was thinking about Ginny and kinda lost in my head.

When I was with all the men I dated after Ginny, I was never mentally present with them.

I was just using them to numb the pain I felt and I was really really desperate for a hug.

Sometimes I don’t realise what’s happening around me because I’ll be in my head.

I think I used to mastrubate looking at women on TV. That’s why everyone thought I’m bisexual.

I honestly didn’t know what I was doing.

It took me a long time to understand my feelings.

Also, I’m straight 95% of the time and I’m not attracted to women in real life.

Whatever conversation I had with Ginny was personal, it was none of anyone’s business.

I was just saying all that to make him happy and he was saying it to make me happy.