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Lucius used to ask me to look at women in Askaban. I don’t know why she did that.

I would casually look and she would say, go near and stare.

She sent me series with nudity in it and raved about it saying it’s extremely good and forced me to watch it.

Honestly it wasn’t even good and now that I think about it, it had sexual violence.

I didn’t understand that before. Because of the smut scenes I would get turned on and mastrubate. I didn’t know what was happening.

I was so fucking immature.

I started understanding all these things after reading adult books with spice.

Before I used read only children’s and young adult books. So I had zero knowledge on sex and relationships.

I started understanding about these things, I think last year.

Even Voldemort, she asked me to silently watch boys from a corner and look at them.

I did that without knowing what I was doing. I continued doing it for sometime. Once I understood it, I stopped.

Also, I could never see them clearly because I wasn’t comfortable with glasses.

It was like a game. I was just doing things my friends did and playing.

I think I was a retard.