rachana rajan <3

I knew what’s Ginny’s type of women.

So whenever I see someone who is her type. I would tell her I like them to make her happy. I didn’t actually like them.

Whenever she would send me pictures, I would say I like them to make her happy.

It wasn’t about the pictures, it was about talking to her.

I did like symran and few women on bumble and keerthana.

I was just trying to understand my feelings at that time.

After Ginny stopped talking to me, whenever I see someone whom she would like, I would look at them and later start crying because we weren’t talking.

I was never attracted to women in real life.

I can never say no to her.

I thought she wanted threesome, so I kept faking it that I’m interested and talking about it.

But it was eating me up, I was getting fucked in my head.

I tried watching porn and tried liking it, but I was getting fucked up.

I was attracted to women at that time, I thought I could do it, so I kept making up my mind to do it, even though I was not okay.

It was a huge misunderstanding.

Even when Ginny texted me last time and said, “you can do it for me right”, I don’t like saying no and I got fucked up because I cannot say no and I was extremely sick, I couldn’t handle it.

So I exploded. I don’t remember what I texted.

Also, I’m straight now from so long time.

Whenever she would look at someone when we meet, it used to fuck me up but I would say I like them because I can never say anything to hurt her.

I would talk about them too.

I kept dressing hot instead, so she would look at me.

I was so immature and childish.

Also, so fucked in the head because I cannot say no or express how I feel. I didn’t want to hurt her

Even if I was getting hurt, I didn’t want to hurt her.