rachana rajan <3

I do not want the best of both worlds.

I want what I asked for.

I decide what I want, I don’t want people to decide it.

Also, whatever I said about the so called friends in the past is true.

They were disrespectful, extremely condescending and I was kept under their foot like a doormat and continuosly stamped from day one till the last day.

They are well deserving of the abuse.

Whatever I did is 50% of what they did to me.

There were so many more things that they did, I haven’t written everything here.

I have absolutely no good memories with them.

They are lying about me staring at their chest or whatever it is that they must have said.

I don’t know what they would have said because no one tells me anything.

They just don’t want to accept that they are narrow minded so they are blaming me.

Because I’m different people conveniently believe them.

Not reaching out is something any person would do in this world, if they were in my place.

As for the waitresses who spoke to me.

I was good to them initially and casually spoke to them.

I was mistreated by the person in social multiple times and I avoided her and even spoke back. I was even assaulted couple of times by her.

As for the person in 46, she was good and friendly.

But there was barely any friendship. The only thing that was happening was she telling me her problems every time I went there.

I tried being friends but it wasn’t working.

I was just keeping it casual because as I said I was going through a lot and I wasn’t looking for anything.

Not just with her, but with anyone. I wasn’t going on dates too.

And things turned bad after I was sexually assaulted.

Also, since I gained popularity people who speak to me have been extremely clingy and they keep forcing themselves in my life.

I wasn’t talking about just the waitresses but every single person I speak to.

Even the men I go on date with or speak to, they keep forcing.

People don’t know how to behave around me.

They behave extremely weird.

And after I openly spoke about what happened, people got offended because of the truth and tried to turn things on me by digging the past which was already cleared.

They didn’t want to take accountability for their fuck up, so they turned it on me instead.

Whatever happened after that was monstrous.

Also, I already spoke about everything that happened.

You need to understand that people are extremely manipulative in front of the whole world to save face.

I’m not sure what they must have said about me. But it’s easy for people to put things on me because I’m different and escape taking accountability.

I’ve already said everything and even taken accountability for my mistakes.

But unfortunately not everyone has the courage to do that, so they turn things around and hurt me instead.