When I close my eyes I remember the first time I heard her voice.
When we spoke about that song from varanam aayiram and I remember my heart sinking from that moment on.
The first time I looked at her and she started laughing, omg that laugh. What will I give to see that again.
When she removed her sunglasses and looked at me for the first time.
The way her became extra round after I kissed her.
Her childlike innocent expressions.
And everything else that followed.
Till the last time I hugged her extra tight because she said she is going away to Chennai for a month.
And I didn’t see her after that.
Has it been two years?
I suppose so. But there hasn’t been a day I haven’t thought about her.
She saw me when no one else did.
She fell in love with me when I was a failure and dying.
She is the reason I’m alive today and I was able to heal.
She is the reason I am where I am.
But all this success and fame doesn’t mean shit.
I’m ready to throw all this away for a quiet and normal life with her in Chennai or Canada or wherever she decides.
The place doesn’t matter, she is all that matters.
Maybe the stars have aligned and I see a lot of yellow and bees too.
I’m finally normal as well.
I’ve wanted this since forever. I’ve been in love with her even before I met her.
I remember writing about her in my diary when I was an immature child. My bestfriend whom I will marry one day.
Please heal me God.
Also, heal the anger of people around me.
I really want this.
rachana rajan <3 