rachana rajan <3

I already said multiple times, I was a socially awkward and shy child.

My mind was not developed and on top of that I was constantly suicidal because of what was happening around me.

Because of that I might have been continuously lost in my world and people would have assumed I’m staring at them.

I’m not sure about this because I haven’t intentionally done it.

I was a toddler in my mind. But a broken toddler because of all forms of assaults.

I had behavioural issues as well which I already admitted.

I used to hug everyone because hugging helps when I’m feeling low. I used to keep looking at people with the intention to make friends.

Also, I already explained about the staring incidents aswell.

There’s absolutely nothing left to say.

I’ve already explained everything that I have understood about my bisexuality as well.

It has always been on and off.

Before I didn’t understand it clearly. I was attracted to few random women online, it was rare though.

I used to just watch stuff online and mastrubate.

I wasn’t attracted to anyone in real life till Lockhart.

I have openly taken names of women I was attracted to as well.

There’s really nothing left to say, even if this continues till the end of time.

I used to copy whatever my friends say and whatever my favorite fictional characters did, for a very long time. I didn’t really have an identity of my own.

Whatever I’ve said and done for a very time is this.

I think it’s only recently after I cut off all the people who were treating me badly and started working on myself, that I started having an identity and I stopped being socially awkward.