rachana rajan <3

Honestly, I didn’t know I was this famous until recently couple of months ago.

I knew things but not completely.

Until I watched the movie Jawan, I didn’t realise everyone were reading my blogs.

I was really upset and going through a lot because of what happened with Ginny and my health. Also, everything that people were doing.

My intention was just to clear things in the beginning.

After I realised what was happening couple of months ago is when I was able to understand how to navigate what was happening and find coping mechanisms.

Also, my therapist helped me a lot.

I was able to heal because of Ginny.

And talking about everything that happened in front of the world helped.

Later, I started realising that I was constantly obsessed about Ginny and ignoring the world.

After I came out of that.

It’s recently that I realised that my words are actually making an impact on this world.

That’s when I realised that my content is actually good and important as well.

So I decided to withhold it to take the control in my hands.

Because nothing else is in my control. This idea was given to me by my therapist last year.

That was the intention of posting that song of two steps ahead. And also because I can win over any drama around me because I always think with love.

Also, I have been seeing so many reels online about what happened and what was happening. My therapist answered most of it as well.

So now I actually know everything that happened.

I have written everything as and when I know things.

I do understand that people must be doubting me because I’m hugely successful (this is based on the reel I saw online). I guess that’s what everyone wants.

But I have never fucking asked for this. Also, I can’t handle this amount of success as well.

Yes, I do agree I’m smart now because as I expressed before I’m normal since couple of months.

So I’m able to think smartly and make power moves like taking control in my hands and getting over my anxiety etc.

Also, I’m able to understand a lot of things that I couldn’t before.

I’ve grown up over the course of this two years.

If people are doubting me even after writing each and every thought since 2 years, it’s not in my hands.

I have done everything I can do and spoken about everything.

There’s nothing else I can do now.

Also, I’m actually good at certain things because I like to believe I’m gifted.

I’m scared to share certain things that I do that helps me because sometimes when I share a personal information people use it against me.

I’m sorry but this is true.

I’ve said everything. People have been making me talk as well, so I’ve spoken about everything based on what I saw online.

There’s nothing much I can do now.

I’m sorry, I don’t know how to prove to you that I’m speaking the truth.

But I always do.