rachana rajan <3

I get what everyone are trying to do.

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I never pointed out Dhruv’s pimples.

Dhruv always had a lot of pimples on his nose but I never say anything because I’m not that person.

The last time I met him it had reduced drastically.

So I just said, what are you applying on your nose because your pimples have drastically reduced. It looks good now.

I said that to make him feel better.

I always say good things and make people feel better about themselves.

I don’t know why everything I do and say is disected so badly.

I don’t know what manipulated version he said to the world, but this is what really happened.

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Also, I had a problem with the waitress at 46 talking about her problems because firstly, I wasn’t going there to talk to her.

Second, I had a plate full of problems and headache myself which was bigger than hers.

Third, I was going there to be alone and get some space because I can’t do that in this tiny apartment I’m living in. My parents were continuously torturing me.

I just needed some peace, I just wanted to sit and look at the trees and relax because most of the time my head would be throbbing.

She constantly approached me and constantly spoke about just her problems and tried to force the friendship.

Apart from this and her constantly asking to meet her outside and go to her house.

There was absolutely nothing happening in this relationship.

Whatever happened to me was wrong.

I don’t connect with a person who constantly tells me their problems when I’m not in a mind space to listen to them.

There should be something between us to call it a friendship.

There was absolutely nothing apart from this.

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Also, there was a lot of other things that was off about all these people.

I haven’t written word by word about what they did but my decision is the right decision based on my experience with them.

Whatever people are doing, trying to force me to talk to them and trying to break it down is wrong.

Sometimes you should just move on if it is not working out.

I’ve said everything and explained it multiple times.

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Also, Tayenjam was always glued to her phone every time we hung out. Her face would be buried in it.

I don’t understand why she used to meet me if the only thing she did was text and ask me to take her pictures because my camera is good.

Also, other things that I already spoke about.

I would feel awkward sitting next to her quietly.

Hence I would try to initiate conversations asking who is she texting or something silly that way.

Because I don’t know what else to say in these situations.

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I’ve already spoken about this multiple times. But I’m saying it again because I’m not sure why people don’t want to listen.