rachana rajan <3

The first time I spoke to winnie. I spoke to her because I wanted her to take my picture.

She said I’m looking really hot and look my picture. I spoke casually and thanked her and came back to my table and she followed me.

She started telling me her life story about everything and her problems at work.

I started getting overwhelmed because at that time I was going through a lot of shit myself. At work and everything else. Also, she was a stranger I just met.

So I told her, everyone has problems it’s just about how you face it. Then I sat down and she left.

I saw her on the way to the loo and asked her name and said like winnie the pooh and smiled and left.

After few days I saw her when I went there, I walked up to her and her friend and said hi, she started saying her problems again about work and that’s when the pimple incident happened. She spoke about her skin breaking out and I said what I said to make her feel better and she invited me home.

I kinda was taken aback a bit because I don’t know her. Because of my past incidents I don’t really go to anyone’s house as well. But I didn’t say anything and ignored and just helped her with her problem and walked away.

I completely forgot about the whole thing.

I went there again and she served my drink and I don’t usually pay attention to anyone and said thank you and was just listening to music.

She stood there looking at me. So I said hi and spoke.

Later while leaving, she invited me to some where that she and colleagues were going. I said no because I was going through too much. Also I don’t really like hanging out in groups.

This continued where she would keep speaking to me whenever I went there. She would keep telling me her problems too.

I was just keeping it casual.

Then one day while she was speaking about her problems, she asked my Instagram. I gave it. I don’t really follow anyone on Instagram as I already mentioned. But I think she was expecting me to follow her and I don’t know how to say no, so I caved.

Then she asked me if I know a place where she can buy shoes. I suggested few places. She suggested we go together and we exchanged numbers.

Later it didn’t happen.

After that, she posted a story on Instagram which was extremely alarming where she was abusing someone, I’m not sure who.

I didn’t really have any intention of making friends at the moment and also there wasn’t anything between us. So after that story I deleted her number.

She had posted the same thing on Instagram. I unfollowed. Because as I said there was nothing between us.

I didn’t think she’ll notice as well.

I forgot about the whole thing and kept going there. She would keep approaching me with her problems.

I think she felt I was going there to talk to her. But I wasn’t.

Also, I wasn’t really interested in the politics of that pub.

She kept saying call me we’ll meet outside. I wasn’t entirely excited about it because I wasn’t really comfortable with her or excited about meeting outside.

She said it couple of times and then I felt okay I can give it a try. I asked her number and I think she got offended because she had given it to me before.

But yeah, after that I called her 2-3 times when I was going out but it didn’t happen because she was busy.

Also, I wasn’t entirely excited about the whole thing also it was becoming one sided because I was the only one calling.

Later, I was having problems at home and I was extremely suicidal. I called her because I keep helping her every single time I go there. And she keeps venting to me.

I said I’m not okay. She said she’ll call back. But she didn’t at all.

After that when I went there. The usual continued. Inbetween all this I complimented her uniform 2 times and I said her hand looks smooth and asked her if she is using razor or she waxes.

These are the only things I speak to her about, the trees, the coffee or something casual.

Because I have never felt comfortable enough to open up to her.

The only thing she does is talk about her problems since the very first we spoke.

She called me home and asked me to meet continuously many times.

I didn’t feel bad when the plan was cancelled because I wasn’t really excited about it. When she calls me home I ignore and change the topic.

Later since it wasn’t working at all. I didn’t know how to tell her but I wanted to say it in a way that would not hurt her.

So I said a white lie that I don’t trust people that easily, so I don’t really consider anyone as my friend so quickly. Please don’t feel bad.

I didn’t want to say the truth that I didn’t feel the connection.

After that I left it.

After that I was having a major fight at home and I couldn’t handle it, so I went there.

I was trying to calm down because my head was blasting with pain. She came and for the first time I opened up and said I fought with parents and she said look for a job.

I said I’m waiting for my money and ended the conversation. But she stretched the conversation and gaslighted me brutally.

My head was already throbbing on top of that she was stabbing me intentionally, so I sternly said, I don’t want to speak to you.

She left.

A male employee came and sexually assaulted me till I left.

It was too much, so I complained.

Everyone knows what happened after that.

Inbetween all this they even removed my favorite drink from the menu because I wasn’t interested in being her friend.

Also, I wan’t completely honest with the mangers because I didn’t want her to get into trouble.