rachana rajan <3

If people are doing this so that they want me to be friends with people I stopped speaking with.

I have already expressed this multiple times that I’m not interested.

I have forgiven them and I care about them as a human being from a distance but I cannot do more than this. I do not like them because of what they did to me.

What they did was alarming, abusive and evil.

There was absolutely no friendship between us.

Everyone knows I’m good and even I know that.

Continuously pointing out my flaws which I’ve already spoken about and taken accountability for doesn’t diminish my worth and importance.

I know my value and I know who I am.

I know people online are hurting me intentionally but I don’t know why they are doing that even after talking about everything.

Even people in the past knew I was good because everyone who speaks to me know that I’m good and harmless.

Everyone already knows how I am as a person because of my YouTube.

They are just pretending in front of the world if they are saying I wasn’t good or if they are saying they were against me.

Whenever there was a reality show or whatever it was and when people could read my messages, everyone were just pretending not to like me and they would take advantage of the situation.

But when that wasn’t the case, they would continuously use me.

Because every single person knew I was good and they would continuously force friendship because I’m good.

They look advantage of me, my helplessness and innocence. They used me and kept me under their foot and stamped on me like a doormat.

They abused and assaulted me like monsters.

I’ve seen the worst possible side of humankind and monstrous psychotic behaviours because I was innocent and didn’t know boundary.

I didn’t know to say no.

I’ve come out of it and worked on myself constantly these last four years.

I retaliated towards the abusers which is just 20% of what they did, sometimes 50.

Now I’m finally in a good place and I cannot go back to the traumatizers and what I’ve left behind.

Also, there was nothing good between us to fight for it.

I’ve already spoken it multiple times.

People need to let it go.