rachana rajan <3

When someone hurts me a lot and betrays me, I think of ways to hurt them back.

With the truth obviously. Most of the time it’s the things I overlooked or let slide.

When people don’t care about me and manipulate and lie. I don’t think I should care about them and it’s okay to speak the truth.

I’ve started to dislike some people, after I grew up and gained an understanding, because of what they did to me.

I do love and care about everyone as a human being.

But I dislike some at the same time. I’m aware that these two emotions can exist at the same time.

I don’t know if this is called as games or what exactly.

But this is the only thing I do that might be, idk not good? idk. I think everyone does this?

I never start anything though. I always retaliate.

I always rise above the drama because I think from a place of love, which people often fail to do.

This doesn’t apply for people I like.

With people I like, I fight for the relationship, say sorry and make things better. Always. I love unconditionally.

..

I do see things online. Hence I’m saying this.

Everything about me and whatever I’ve said is genuine and I know for a fact that people already know that.

I’m aware that I’m different and not like others, that doesn’t mean I’m playing games.

I don’t know why people are taunting me constantly by saying this.

I think I’m a special child. That’s it.

There are so many special children in this world.

Everyone are unique.

I’m also strong I suppose. I’ve come to realise that.

Just because I’m hugely successful and things are apparently going my way and I was able to prove things and fight, doesn’t mean my integrity should be questioned right.

Everything that I said is true.

I didn’t see all this coming. I was just letting my thoughts flow here for the last 2 years.

And things worked out for the better because I’m good at writing and what I do, that’s it.

I’m constantly educating myself, learning, understanding, observing and finding solutions for problems. I’m good at putting it all across.

If I wasn’t good at writing and YouTube, I wouldn’t have been this successful.

Instead of doubting, people should just accept that.

I do see things online, I watched stuff, read things and took therapy.

I put it all together and hence I’m aware of things now.

I learnt to take control of things as well. Because I worked on it constantly.

Maybe someone else wouldn’t have been able to do the things I did and even survived what I went through.

I have already expressed that that’s because I’m good at certain things so I was able to.

You might have already realised everything I’m good at because I’ve been putting myself out there since 2 years and also constantly spoke about things that helps me.

It is helping the world as well, which I can clearly see.

I do see the changes and impact and everything else, I’m not blind and stupid. I did notice things after I came out of my dreaming.

I feel God blessed me and that’s why I’m different and able to handle what I went through.

I have abundance of love in me and I always think with love and when I received love from Ginny.

It kinda gave me strength to push through the storm.

I feel people already know I’m speaking the truth but I don’t understand why I’m being constantly taunted inspite of it.

I feel people are just exploiting me right now. There’s no other reasonable explanation for why this is prolonging.

I feel people are just fishing.

I’m not interested in giving anything anymore though when this is how I’m being treated.