I went through a lot these last two months when I didn’t deserve it and when it wasn’t my fault.
Because of that I have been extremely fucked in the head.
The entire world was coming at me.
It was beyond stressful and also, there was so many misunderstandings that people had created.
It was more than what I could handle and I’m still coming out of it.
I’m still not out of it.
My mind is still very fucked and I have been constantly trying to feel better.
I was sitting outside and trying to feel better and this lady came and started intentionally stabbing me to fuck me up and for a reaction.
It is sadistic. (please refer to the meaning of the word sadistic because that’s exactly what it was)
It was planned.
Hence I came home and broke.
The way my parents reacted was also wrong and I broke again.
I went for a walk to cool off.
I saw her again but I didn’t say anything to her because I’m not that person.
I was completely broken after what she did and was extremely suicidal the whole night.
….
Just because I’m strong people fail to understand that I’m a human being and whatever happened to me was not something a human being can take and come out of soon.
People should understand what they are doing is wrong too.
Because gaslighting me intentionally even after knowing what I went through these last two months and even after knowing that it is harassment, is sadistic.
rachana rajan <3 