rachana rajan <3

I don’t know why people are speaking about “friends” and showing me Draco, Lucius Malfoy and others.

I have spoken about it since day one.

About every single thing that they did and that happened.

When I was speaking to them I was innocent and naive and did use the word friends.

I did miss them till a point because I didn’t have an understanding.

But now that I do understand things because of therapy and educating myself.

I know for a fact that that wasn’t friendship but monstrous abuse.

I don’t know why people are throwing these things on my face again and again, even after speaking about it since day one.

I do understand why people doubted me regarding the song that I posted on Instagram.

I read online just now that manipulators are always one step ahead and that song spoke about being two steps ahead.

It makes sense, but I have already spoken it several times that I posted that song for a reason that I have control over the situation that I’m in now.

I didn’t understand the implications of posting that song given my past misunderstandings.

I don’t think things through before saying it because I would be doing it without meaning any harm.

I don’t know what I can say for people to stop sticking on to it like this.

I have done everything I can do from my end.

I’m just repeating the same things again and again now.

I don’t know why I have to though because I have already addressed everything multiple times.

I don’t know why people are not understanding it even after saying it so many times.

I don’t know what is expected from me as well?

Are they expecting me to be friends with all these people?

I don’t get it though because I already spoke about everything that happened.

Aren’t people being a little hypocritical expecting me to do something they cannot themselves?