rachana rajan <3

I see the eyes emoji, closest friends, Darr movie etc.

Honestly, I don’t know what people are expecting from me or what they want me to say about these things which hasn’t been said already.

I was constantly mistreated by the people in the past. I didn’t have self respect, self love or ego.

I just had a lot of unconditional love and zero knowledge about the world.

Hence they kept me under their foot like a doormat and I loved them unconditionally.

During covid, I changed and decided to cut them off.

I read the book, “Maybe you should talk to someone” and became interested in therapy.

My company started free therapy and that was the time Will got engaged.

I was suicidal because of all these reasons and took up therapy.

And it changed my life.

I started learning self love and started understanding things because I was also reading extensively.

I started learning self respect.

I started retaliating and giving back to people.

Then I moved to this apartment and started improving drastically and started working on myself.

I started understanding what I went through because of those people.

Everything was making sense but I didn’t know what really happened, so I kept asking my family.

Meanwhile, I met Ginny and I was in love with her.

I kept asking what happened to mother.

Then when I went to office, I was harrassed and had a panic attack.

Everyone knows what happened after that.

A lot of unfair things happened to me, I was extremely angry, I kept screaming.

So I wrote here to let out my emotions.

I wanted revenge, I wanted to prove my innocence and sanity. I was constantly trying to prove myself and clear the misunderstandings. I was extremely heartbroken and I got tonsils.

It was a huge explosion of emotions and I let it all out by writing.

And it helped me.