rachana rajan <3

I was a fangirl since childhood.

Whenever I read something I copy it.

After Voldemort used hurcrux for the first time, I broke down and I was really mad at her.

I kinda stopped speaking to her and the group.

I didn’t know to speak back then, I was still learning. So I couldn’t tell anyone about what happened because I didn’t understand it myself.

I never cared about the group anyway.

I got busy with my college.

I was slowly becoming normal because I started making friends in college.

Voldemort kept reaching out.

Sometimes I would respond and sometimes I would not.

She would call me her bestfriend and say things like you are stuck with me forever etc.

I started forgiving her and I would say random things sometimes.

She was the kinda person who likes talking about “cute boys” so I would humour her by speaking about someone in my college.

I use to just smile at him, his name was Rachit, with the intention of making friends. Things were also fine for a while.

After a while he and his friends started making obscene comments and I stopped smiling at him.

But since Voldemort kept asking me about cute boys. I spoke about him to her and lied that I have a crush on him.

I found him cute yes. I would also feel nervous around him. Because I was a shy person.

I kinda stuck to that lie because it was harmless.

I didn’t know all these things was going on in the background. People do say harmless lies to their friends.

Also, Voldemort was extremely invested in giving names of fictional characters to the school group.

She would call me alice.

I wasn’t really invested in the whole group thing because I didn’t like the group much.

I was just close to her.

My friend Monica at that time asked me to read midnight sun from Edwards POV. It had leaked online.

I really liked it so I said the same to Voldemort.

I was team Jacob but after reading that I liked Edward too.

I didn’t really think much about the group dynamics when I said this because I never liked them in the first place.

Her ex, ashwin used to constantly call me ugly since a very long time and we had beef as well. He would constantly pester me to introduce him to my female friends.

He was an asshole. I never liked him.

But since I loved everyone back then, I did love him as a brother and that’s it.

Anyway, this misunderstanding would have cleared if Voldemort had spoken to me like a normal person and cleared the air.

But she didn’t.

The shit that she started has been continuing up until now.

Because she was speaking in a certain way, she would have assumed I was too.

Everyone who spoke to me took her place as a Death Eater.

But I never say something and mean something else, even back then.

If she was a good person my life would have been different.

Her shit continued till now and ruined my life.

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