Note.

I think it was because I was tortured in all forms that I couldn’t feel sexual attraction. Also, because of the medicines.

My twenties was spent being crazy when I should have been dating and making friends normally.

Everything was because of what happened with Voldemort.

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I’ve dated a lot casually since 2019.

I’ve done things with men. Like kissing and other stuff.

But I haven’t felt anything much. I kept struggling and I was constantly trying to understand what was happening.

When I fell in love with Will, I had an explosion of feelings.

You can ask him.

We kept sexting and speaking continuously.

But we didnt meet.

I had sex with Psycho Divorcee but I felt nothing.

I kept struggling to feel something real.

I felt it’s because of the medicine and also because of the past assaults.

You can ask Dumbledore, I kept complaining to him.

I felt things for the people I mentioned I had a crush on. But it was for a short duration. It wasn’t real.

Until I met Ginny and it was as though I woke up from sleep.

I still feel for her.

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I don’t know I’m kinda dead sexually otherwise. I don’t feel that emotion.

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I have to be in love to have real feelings.

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