I think it’s also because of my childhood.
Since I was in my own world and speaking only to God.
Everyone else ceased to exist.
I did get turned on when I watched something on TV or when I thought about something and stuff.
But I wasn’t really interested or attracted to anyone around me. I was kinda void of that emotion.
I never found anyone attractive. Even now I don’t.
I had a lot of platonic love(Non sexual).
Voldemort took God’s place in my life since she was my first friend after God.
So I did consider her as an angel that God sent.
I don’t know. I was kinda stupid that way because I didn’t know about the world or anything before.
I didn’t know the social norms or anything.
I didn’t know Voldemort was hurting me because she wanted me to stop speaking to her.
After whatever happened, I was broken.
I struggled so much for a very long time.
Even now, I don’t really understand the intentions clearly.
But I have a lot of knowledge through experiences and by educating myself.
So I’m good at navigating through life.
I’ve learnt things which I have shared with you.
I’m good at certain things as well.
I don’t know what is expected from me or why people are doing all these things.
I don’t really understand the intention behind things.